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Last night I cracked, i think after everything this weekend i just lost it. I let someone in and let them close enough to send me to a place where I told myself I would never go back to after jason. I actually got an apology for it and he seemed genuinely concerned about whatever we had being messed up. The fact is im not sure it is ok, I think it may have pushed me into that cold place where it never could be ok again. I don't know we'll see.