look for the girl with a broken smile
so i havent been on lj in forever but ive been thinking a lot lately and need somewhere to ramble. last summer after graduation and before moving out i was looking forward to meeting new people and making new friends. i was hoping to find people in ft myers that understood me. i was looking for a place to belong. i got there and made a couple friends, but i still didn't really "find my place" like i was hoping to. and then i thought back to new port richey. this is where all my friends are that ive grown up with. this is where my home is. i was looking forward to moving back here for the summer and being with everyone in new port richey. then i got here. i remembered why i left; to find my place. i dont have anyone here either. there are the people here that i hang out with, but none of those people are really that good of friends of mine. i dont have a place in fort myers and i dont have a place in new port richey. ive just been so lonely for so long. even the one person i call my "best friend" drives me crazy more than anyone else. i want someone to understand me. i want someone who gets it. i want someone to love me. is it so much to ask to not be lonely? is that too much for me to ask for out of life? all i want is some love.