hormones?
K, i feel like shit. not physically, but mentally. I just had a conversation with Derek just now, and you would think that would make me happy right..? well you'd be wrong. it made me sad. all he could talk about was how awesome his day was with corporate vball, work, beach vball, and it made me think that maybe he doesnt need me. his life is too perfect already right? why am i having these thoughts? i have no idea. i know he loves me and he wants me in his life. must be PMS. fuck. i need a punching bag