disappointments...
this weekend was a blast after friday's drama. me, shelby, and erika went to perkins and had fun just like we used to. it was nice to just spend time with them and have a really good time.
saturday night, i took my brother to homecoming and while he was there, me and shelby went back to my house and watched Shall We Dance with my mom. it was such a good movie, i recommend it to everyone!! then i went back to pick up my brother and about 15 of his friends needed a ride. so i made about 4 trips from east to perkins. it was annoying. then, me and shelby went to mcd's and went out to nick's, but when we got there, nick said he was goin to perkins, so we all ended up there along with his sister. it was fun. then, i had to take all my brother's friends home and his girlfriends mom cussed me out for having her out that late. i was scared out my mind cuz she was snappin. me and shelby didn't know what to do!!! then i went home and tried to call nick but he was already sleeping. so i went to sleep!
on sunday, i spent the day with nick doin homework. i finally understand my chemistry!! it was fun. i love spendin time with him.
while me and shelby were at nick's on saturday, we saw some things that were really kinda hurtful. like, they aren't meant to be, but they really are and i don't really know how to tell him. today, i couldn't even look because i didn't want to snap. i really don't want him to change his things because i say something about them. i want them to change because he wants them to, but i don't think he ever will. i'm not the type of girl that has to control everything and determine what someone can and can't do. and i haven't at all. i have never said that i wanted anything a certain way. and i don't wanna start now. but at the same time, i know that i should say something about it because it's honestly not right. i'm so confused right now. i really don't know what to do. i'm afraid that they have more meaning than he tells me. i need help. does that make sense shelbz...that's why i can't say anything!! i'm scared!
love, myra
saturday night, i took my brother to homecoming and while he was there, me and shelby went back to my house and watched Shall We Dance with my mom. it was such a good movie, i recommend it to everyone!! then i went back to pick up my brother and about 15 of his friends needed a ride. so i made about 4 trips from east to perkins. it was annoying. then, me and shelby went to mcd's and went out to nick's, but when we got there, nick said he was goin to perkins, so we all ended up there along with his sister. it was fun. then, i had to take all my brother's friends home and his girlfriends mom cussed me out for having her out that late. i was scared out my mind cuz she was snappin. me and shelby didn't know what to do!!! then i went home and tried to call nick but he was already sleeping. so i went to sleep!
on sunday, i spent the day with nick doin homework. i finally understand my chemistry!! it was fun. i love spendin time with him.
while me and shelby were at nick's on saturday, we saw some things that were really kinda hurtful. like, they aren't meant to be, but they really are and i don't really know how to tell him. today, i couldn't even look because i didn't want to snap. i really don't want him to change his things because i say something about them. i want them to change because he wants them to, but i don't think he ever will. i'm not the type of girl that has to control everything and determine what someone can and can't do. and i haven't at all. i have never said that i wanted anything a certain way. and i don't wanna start now. but at the same time, i know that i should say something about it because it's honestly not right. i'm so confused right now. i really don't know what to do. i'm afraid that they have more meaning than he tells me. i need help. does that make sense shelbz...that's why i can't say anything!! i'm scared!
love, myra