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Sorry I haven't wrote in a long time! From volleyball and school I have no time for anything. All I do is get up, go to school, chill with marcus from photo to world his, lunch, volleyball practice until 5:30, homework, bed. Time for nothing. I don't want to waste my high school year not hanging out with my friends. Winter is the only season I have off and it is soo cold out that no one wants to do anything. I get my license in Feb...i hope, so that makes it a little better.
Volleyball is crap right now or has been for the whole season. Coach hates me and i kno cause i have been sitting on the bench for the past 5 games, so why the hell do i even come. But on firday we had a quad at home and he had me starting right side, which i was suprised that i would ever be out there. I guess im not a setter anymore...Yes now im a rightside hitter...sweet!
School, well I can say that it is going good. There has been a couple nights that i was up until midnight doing homework cause of volleyball games. Photo is ok. Brittany wants to shot Ms.Lagrange. Getting an A- with a missing assignment which I know i handed in. World History is a blast now we got moved and Im sitting by like Eric G. and some of those people. Getting a B in that class. Oh espanol 2, man that class is soo much fun, but Tayor talks sooo damn fast i can't understand her. I hope i don't fail that class so i can take Holder for espanol 3(hehehe). SS&DH with Tricia, Matt, and Sipos is soo much fun. I had Pawlowski last year which was a blast. Getting a B- in that class cause of my Short Story Analysis Assessment that sucked to write.
Friends, umm where to start. I still believe someone people think im still annoying and just pretend to be all good with me then plan stuff with my other friends and not say anything to me. I know everyone has changed and so have I, but we still are the same kids. I hate people to judge me on little things that I do. Like of I say something or do something wrong. Some people even think im a follower, which IM NOT! Like can't i like hang or walk around with people and not make them think im following them. WTF! I don't have a group that I'm apart of, im more of a floater. Im friends with all different people. For once I wish part of one group that are all my best friends and there was one group i thought i was, but i was wrong. I have never really known who my best friends were. I can list people off that I hang out with, but there is this one thing that goes through my mind are they really friends or just people that i think are. The fear of not having any friends to go to when I need them always freaks me out. OK im done talking about that now.
Guys.......what the hell is with some of the guys in our school. They make you think they like you then one day he is over another girl. One example is Jake ok i don't like him and he asked me to Homecoming and during most of the dance he is all over Hilary. I love Hilary and this isn't about her. I was thinking did you just ask me soo you could hang out with Hilary. Then i find out later that night at her house after everyone left Jake had asked her to homecoming before he asked me. Man oh man jake what are we going to do with you. Boyfriends haven't been so good for me. I dislike short relationships. More of a long-term relationship. I kno that we are only in High school, but most of the people i kno that are older all of there boyfriends/husbands went to their high school. For all I know he is there , but i don't think so. Im not a person that will say straight out who i like cause i don't want want people to be like oh really? and then think im crazy. Cause most of the guys i liked i know i can't get. Some people might now who i like right now, but i highly doubt it unless they were there doing AP. But then evert since then I haven't seen him around. Homecoming i was hoping he would be there, which he was. That night went soo fast. I remember saying that he owns me a dance before the night. The 2nd to last dance I was walking around and i saw him then Jake found me and was like lets dance, so i danced with him. The last song of the night ended and i was pissed. I found him and he said he was sorry, but he was trying to find me and saw me dancing with Jake. I believe he thought we were going out which no. I wish i would just tell him how i feel, but im afraid that he doesn't like me back and myself getting hurt again. I have no clue what to do now:(
Well i have to get going have to take a shower, get ready, then going to M-town with the vball team to watch the Wisconsin girls vball team play. Be back around 9:30ish. I will have my cell.
PEACE!!!
Volleyball is crap right now or has been for the whole season. Coach hates me and i kno cause i have been sitting on the bench for the past 5 games, so why the hell do i even come. But on firday we had a quad at home and he had me starting right side, which i was suprised that i would ever be out there. I guess im not a setter anymore...Yes now im a rightside hitter...sweet!
School, well I can say that it is going good. There has been a couple nights that i was up until midnight doing homework cause of volleyball games. Photo is ok. Brittany wants to shot Ms.Lagrange. Getting an A- with a missing assignment which I know i handed in. World History is a blast now we got moved and Im sitting by like Eric G. and some of those people. Getting a B in that class. Oh espanol 2, man that class is soo much fun, but Tayor talks sooo damn fast i can't understand her. I hope i don't fail that class so i can take Holder for espanol 3(hehehe). SS&DH with Tricia, Matt, and Sipos is soo much fun. I had Pawlowski last year which was a blast. Getting a B- in that class cause of my Short Story Analysis Assessment that sucked to write.
Friends, umm where to start. I still believe someone people think im still annoying and just pretend to be all good with me then plan stuff with my other friends and not say anything to me. I know everyone has changed and so have I, but we still are the same kids. I hate people to judge me on little things that I do. Like of I say something or do something wrong. Some people even think im a follower, which IM NOT! Like can't i like hang or walk around with people and not make them think im following them. WTF! I don't have a group that I'm apart of, im more of a floater. Im friends with all different people. For once I wish part of one group that are all my best friends and there was one group i thought i was, but i was wrong. I have never really known who my best friends were. I can list people off that I hang out with, but there is this one thing that goes through my mind are they really friends or just people that i think are. The fear of not having any friends to go to when I need them always freaks me out. OK im done talking about that now.
Guys.......what the hell is with some of the guys in our school. They make you think they like you then one day he is over another girl. One example is Jake ok i don't like him and he asked me to Homecoming and during most of the dance he is all over Hilary. I love Hilary and this isn't about her. I was thinking did you just ask me soo you could hang out with Hilary. Then i find out later that night at her house after everyone left Jake had asked her to homecoming before he asked me. Man oh man jake what are we going to do with you. Boyfriends haven't been so good for me. I dislike short relationships. More of a long-term relationship. I kno that we are only in High school, but most of the people i kno that are older all of there boyfriends/husbands went to their high school. For all I know he is there , but i don't think so. Im not a person that will say straight out who i like cause i don't want want people to be like oh really? and then think im crazy. Cause most of the guys i liked i know i can't get. Some people might now who i like right now, but i highly doubt it unless they were there doing AP. But then evert since then I haven't seen him around. Homecoming i was hoping he would be there, which he was. That night went soo fast. I remember saying that he owns me a dance before the night. The 2nd to last dance I was walking around and i saw him then Jake found me and was like lets dance, so i danced with him. The last song of the night ended and i was pissed. I found him and he said he was sorry, but he was trying to find me and saw me dancing with Jake. I believe he thought we were going out which no. I wish i would just tell him how i feel, but im afraid that he doesn't like me back and myself getting hurt again. I have no clue what to do now:(
Well i have to get going have to take a shower, get ready, then going to M-town with the vball team to watch the Wisconsin girls vball team play. Be back around 9:30ish. I will have my cell.
PEACE!!!