my eyes are red and tired.

[vball2158]

well it really sucks when the one person you want to call to vent to is the one person that you can't fucking wait to bitch out.

so much for best fucking friends and trust.

hah.

drama drama drama today.

you cheated on me.

no i didn't, not really.

we're broken up, never speak to me again and take that ring back to my house and explain to my parents why. just kidding, i want to be with you, will you be my fiancee again?

you have to ask me that in person, not over the phone.

right. oh by the way, you're never allowed to drink again.

um, no, you don't have that kind of control over me and i'm not letting you establish that.

ok.

i don't know whether i want us to just be together like magic again.

why are you pushing me away? you're making me more scared right now than i am to be going to iraq.

i'm not, i just don't know what the fuck i want.

ok, well you need to figure that out. because i know what i want, and what i want is to marry you and spend the rest of my life with you. call me when you know what you want, i won't call you until you call me.

okay...

what the fuck do i want?

shit.

whyaminotjumpingatthisfuckingboysayinghewantstomarrymeeeeeeeeee?