Jul 19, 2009 20:34
I've decided I don't want to be a woman anymore. This pain and anguish is so not worth it. I'm sitting on my computer chair, wondering what to do. But there is nothing to do. If I surf the internet, I will continue to be in pain. If I play video games I will continue to be in pain. If I go out, I will continue to be in pain.
The only thing I can think of is sleep, and even then...I'm not sure whether my body will let me do that since I've had my 8 hours sleep and anything more then that is rejected automatically. My body sucks.
On a brighter note, I just finished doing something very nice and thoughtful for someone. Being an internet friend sucks, but at least if I live in the same country as them I can send them fluffy drivel through the post. It's probably best people don't give their addresses to me...I get a little excited about sending them stuff.
I also watched Ice Age 3. Yes online. Though I only watched it half heartily since my attention was on other things. Buck is actually how I'm going to end up. Insane, talking to myself, and picking fights with something that's clearly going to squash me.
I actually don't mind that idea too much. I'd rather be insane and happy, then sane and miserable. I guess people wouldn't agree but OMFG right now I would so prefer to be insane if my period pains would go the hell away.
FEMINAX DOES NOTHING.
Also I find the SA thing on TDF quite laughable. True they didn't get any of my posts, but considering how largely out of context and lame their pokes at were. They'd probably grab something I meant to be insane out, and try and prove I'm insane with it. Yes dears, I KNOW I can act weird. Doesn't mean I always am.
Doesn't mean the whole forum is.
Ok I am now scratching my arm in pain so I should go...find some stronger pain medication.
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