Post 2006 karate camp.
I'm pretty scared. Fuck that, I'm very scared. We drive home and Sussex County looks different to me; I'm seeing things that I never saw before, and that sounds totally irrational but it's true. Everything has shifted, a higher plane of existence. I am very, very old. Everything is in motion and there is nothing I can do to change any of it -- not that I want to change any of it, I just feel so powerless. This is all not real. Please don't comment with anything inspirational, oh you can do it, blahblahblah. I know all of that, I know that in the end I have the capacity and the strength. I GET THAT. Truly. Everything is happening now. The things for which I have been waiting are arriving. Time is an astonishing thing.