well..

[vay]

david and i talked to his nana last night about our 'problem.'

the great part was that she'd already had so much bad news yesterday that ours just topped the cake and sent her into giggles.

and we have two choices. or.. I have two choices. it's all dependant upon me, and i hate that. for once, i can't convince someone to choose for me.

because i know what i want and what i should do are two different things.

and i don't want david or anyone else to hate me.
even though he said he wouldn't. i know better.

you should have seen the two of us waiting for the results of the pregnancy test (just in case).

then you should have seen us after the stupid little lines showed up.

he cried.. then i cried.. then i cried s'more later, which got him to crying.

then my mom called. whoa.
she knew something was up, and she kept asking but i didn't tell her. not yet.

then we said nothing about it for a little while until..

Me: -feels something move- ..oh my god.
Him:.....feel it move?
Me:........ yuh.. ........

Oy. I'm so torn. Keep it.. or be indebted to David's nana for $1400 dollars. Eh.