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I've gotten myself into a bit of a predicament. Lately, I've been rather shy- I don't know why, but it seems like I've suddenly become more self-aware around a certain boy at my school. It seems that I've come down with something- other than starving myself. Lately, all I want is what I can't have. Everything and anything unobtainable to me is desirable.
He's got this girlfriend, and I have no clue who she is, though everyone who knows them together says they're the perfect couple and that they'll end up married. My friend knows this guy's girlfriend and has been talking to her for a long while. Just the other night, he was talking to her and she told him she liked him. That she couldn't stop thinking about him, but she LOVED her boyfriend. (What is love if you like someone new?) Towards the end of the conversation, she said, 'My boyfriend and I are not going to be together forever.'
I promised not to tell anyone, while at the same time, this other boy, who's also dating another girl, says he likes me, and wants to hang out. I like this boy too, but I'm thinking I like the first one more- by an inch. Though I don't want to be known as the school boy-friend-stealer. I told the second boy that I can't do anything while he has a girlfriend, that he should wait after V-tines day to break up with her and begin anything with me. So, there I go- chasing after the things I can't mentally have.
Maybe I should just keep turning men down. Maybe all I want is lust.
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He's got this girlfriend, and I have no clue who she is, though everyone who knows them together says they're the perfect couple and that they'll end up married. My friend knows this guy's girlfriend and has been talking to her for a long while. Just the other night, he was talking to her and she told him she liked him. That she couldn't stop thinking about him, but she LOVED her boyfriend. (What is love if you like someone new?) Towards the end of the conversation, she said, 'My boyfriend and I are not going to be together forever.'
I promised not to tell anyone, while at the same time, this other boy, who's also dating another girl, says he likes me, and wants to hang out. I like this boy too, but I'm thinking I like the first one more- by an inch. Though I don't want to be known as the school boy-friend-stealer. I told the second boy that I can't do anything while he has a girlfriend, that he should wait after V-tines day to break up with her and begin anything with me. So, there I go- chasing after the things I can't mentally have.
Maybe I should just keep turning men down. Maybe all I want is lust.
x
