friday night
i just remembered that its friday. i felt like a loser for a minute because i thought i was the only one at home doing nothing. but then i remembered that i did do something tonight. now i'm just waiting for someone to talk to.
i've found that i've had a lot to do lately. much more than i predicted- so my thoughts are occupied most of the time with that. not much time for thinking of other bothersome things, which is good i guess......... but i still remember from time to time.
*make up your mind. take me or leave me. i've been doing fine, with or without you. i'm wasting my time letting you decieve me, the truth is in your eyes but i deny what i see.*
you make me crazy sometimes. why isnt our timing ever the same? we never really seem to be in sync. is that bad? should we be? i wouldnt be worried if it didnt cause so many problems. i think it would be ok for us to be on different wave lengths, if it werent for the way you react sometimes. that worries me a lot. i find that because of my fear for how you will respond, i spend a lot of my time trying to get into your grove. its exhausting. you're already a pretty intense person, but trying to make you happy all the time is wearing me out. cant you make me happy sometimes? or just accept the fact that i'm just me sometimes? i cant always do everything you want- or maybe i just cant be everything you want........
*time and time again- i let you get by, under my skin, i let you break me down again. i let you in close, way to close but i see through it.*
is this over? i think it is in my head, but then again, i know it isnt in the back of my mind, because i dream about it constantly. why is it so pleasant and easy there? why do i enjoy it. i dont stop myself there. i would with anyone else...... why not with you?
*you gave me that smile and i gave in- and you knew that i would. time and time again you pulled me in...... just to give me up, give me up again*
i've found that i've had a lot to do lately. much more than i predicted- so my thoughts are occupied most of the time with that. not much time for thinking of other bothersome things, which is good i guess......... but i still remember from time to time.
*make up your mind. take me or leave me. i've been doing fine, with or without you. i'm wasting my time letting you decieve me, the truth is in your eyes but i deny what i see.*
you make me crazy sometimes. why isnt our timing ever the same? we never really seem to be in sync. is that bad? should we be? i wouldnt be worried if it didnt cause so many problems. i think it would be ok for us to be on different wave lengths, if it werent for the way you react sometimes. that worries me a lot. i find that because of my fear for how you will respond, i spend a lot of my time trying to get into your grove. its exhausting. you're already a pretty intense person, but trying to make you happy all the time is wearing me out. cant you make me happy sometimes? or just accept the fact that i'm just me sometimes? i cant always do everything you want- or maybe i just cant be everything you want........
*time and time again- i let you get by, under my skin, i let you break me down again. i let you in close, way to close but i see through it.*
is this over? i think it is in my head, but then again, i know it isnt in the back of my mind, because i dream about it constantly. why is it so pleasant and easy there? why do i enjoy it. i dont stop myself there. i would with anyone else...... why not with you?
*you gave me that smile and i gave in- and you knew that i would. time and time again you pulled me in...... just to give me up, give me up again*