forgive me...
i looked over at you tonight, sitting comfortably in his lap. my eyes grew a deep green. what is that feeling in the pit of my stomach? anger washes over me. i cant feel this. i have NO right to feel this way. you love him. he loves you. and i stuck myself in the middle. i placed myself where i don't belong. you look at me, nudging me with your toe, but i cant look in your eyes. i cant show you what im feeling. if you looked into the deep pools of my eyes than you would see what isn't supposed to me there. you take my hand and lead me into your room. whats wrong, you ask. you know something is wrong. i push you away. gently but enough to get you out of my way. i cant be feeling what im feeling, i tell you. but if you read between the lines, you would know that im not angry at you. im angry at myself.
bleeding anger squeals from my tires as i round the corner. i slam my fist against the steering wheel and curse at myself. you should have learned. you know what this does to you. why do you always chase after someone you cant have. you feel that you dont deserve anyone so you try to take what isn't yours. you cannot have anything but pain. pain is what you deserve. i take the lit fire and push it hard against my skin. do you smell that? its burning flesh. its pain. its what you deserve. you shouldnt have played with fire...