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Earlier I had written, and shortly thereafter deleted, a couple of posts in which I talked about not feeling important, and not feeling wanted. They were hidden posts, so don't feel particularly bad if you'd missed them. I was feeling pretty down, the kind of thinking that definitely isn't good for you. I was being selfish and stupid about the whole thing, and while I don't regret it (what is life without mistakes? really, really boring) I do know I was wrong.
I'm so happy I have Anna. She talked with me, wormed what was wrong out of me, and made me feel better about the whole thing. She was there for me, and she was understanding. God, she's way too good to me. She always trys to pick me up, even when I'm being mean and snappy. She even gets my jokes! Well, most of the time. No one gets all of my jokes, but then again, I don't tell all of them with enough setup or prior knowledge for people to understand what the hell I'm talking about. But I digress.
I still do have some issues, but I need to talk with people about them, not just post them on an online journal, and expect everything to work out, expect everyone to post comments and jump all over the need to make me feel better. There's no doubting I have an ego, but even mine's not that big. It's nice to finally feel secure enough about it to talk about it, and not sit there hoping someone will see.
Aarika, I'm gonna be seeing you shortly. You know you can't get rid of me =). If you're by yourself, I have some stuff I want to talk to you about, but if not, I can wait. There's no hurry to it and besides, I don't know if you're up to a full length conversation yet.
Man, Life is good. Mistakes and all.
P. S. Chipper is an awesome word.
I'm so happy I have Anna. She talked with me, wormed what was wrong out of me, and made me feel better about the whole thing. She was there for me, and she was understanding. God, she's way too good to me. She always trys to pick me up, even when I'm being mean and snappy. She even gets my jokes! Well, most of the time. No one gets all of my jokes, but then again, I don't tell all of them with enough setup or prior knowledge for people to understand what the hell I'm talking about. But I digress.
I still do have some issues, but I need to talk with people about them, not just post them on an online journal, and expect everything to work out, expect everyone to post comments and jump all over the need to make me feel better. There's no doubting I have an ego, but even mine's not that big. It's nice to finally feel secure enough about it to talk about it, and not sit there hoping someone will see.
Aarika, I'm gonna be seeing you shortly. You know you can't get rid of me =). If you're by yourself, I have some stuff I want to talk to you about, but if not, I can wait. There's no hurry to it and besides, I don't know if you're up to a full length conversation yet.
Man, Life is good. Mistakes and all.
P. S. Chipper is an awesome word.