drugs are bad mmkay
Yesterday i went rafting with my lifelong friend stephanie. Her and her friends got really drunk and acted really stupid. It actually seemed like it made it less fun, or maybe i just let it get to me. Luckily my brother, mindy and maggie went and we all stayed sober. I got pissed off and finally decided to ditch them and we got in our own raft and seperated ahead of them so we would actually make it down before the place closed. On our drive back stephanie kept calling and leaving billigerant calls on my phone.
I duno. I have been meaning to get rid of alcohol for a while, just because i am not one to just "have one" of something, be it food, soda or in this case alochol. A guiness or a cocktail is good everynow and again, but i am really going to try and steer clear of it. Seeing people act in such ways is revulting, especially when it is on a constant bases
Cigars and tabacco are another thing. I cant just have one.. i have to have more .. and more. i even was stupid enough to buy ciggerettes one time and got pissed off and trashed them the next morning. what was i thinking.. what am i thinking. I am ashamed of my past, and never want to revisit the major aspects of it.
Call me straight edge, call me overreacting, but i really am tired of letting this stuff drag me down. I am not strong enough, it will just take me down. I am ready to focus on reality, and start reaching my goals.............
getting to emo for me im out
I duno. I have been meaning to get rid of alcohol for a while, just because i am not one to just "have one" of something, be it food, soda or in this case alochol. A guiness or a cocktail is good everynow and again, but i am really going to try and steer clear of it. Seeing people act in such ways is revulting, especially when it is on a constant bases
Cigars and tabacco are another thing. I cant just have one.. i have to have more .. and more. i even was stupid enough to buy ciggerettes one time and got pissed off and trashed them the next morning. what was i thinking.. what am i thinking. I am ashamed of my past, and never want to revisit the major aspects of it.
Call me straight edge, call me overreacting, but i really am tired of letting this stuff drag me down. I am not strong enough, it will just take me down. I am ready to focus on reality, and start reaching my goals.............
getting to emo for me im out