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[vatemptress]

okay so i haven't posted in like forever but that is mainly because i have nothing good to write! wedding stuff is fine but everything else is not so fine! I killed a bird with my car today and i didn't mean to but it just kinda flew into my windsheild while i was driving on the interstate coming home. work has been stressful here recently but i think that is how it is for everyone right now. chris and i are pickering a bit more but that is because we have different views on the wedding. mom and i don't talk unless we absolutely have to. I'm in more debt then I could ever imagine so thinking of buying a house is a rediculous thought to behold. chris can't seem to sell his truck which is also driving me nuts! i'm tired all the time and i hate it!!! i just can't see very much that is good right now! i feel icky and i really don't know what to do! I haven't participated in any ritural stuff and so i feel like that is suffereing and i don't know how i am going to incorperate my wicca into the ceremony/reception because it is in a METHODIST CHURCH!!! i have a 131 dollar speeding ticket due here soon and that is going to leave practically nothing out of my pay check after all my other bills.... chris and i have like no money to save so i'm thinking of getting a second job for the weekends and evening. i finally registered for classes but the ones i need to be in are during the hours i work and aren't offered any other time so i'm pretty much screwed on that. hmmmmmmmmmmm not much is good right now! i got told that wicca is the work of the devil as is talking with alternate planes and ghosts and etc. I was told i was going to hell for being a wicca and I really wanted to hit the girl who told me this, but i couldn't because her husband is chris's groomsman and his best man's brother... hmmmm yeah about that... she said she has talked to several priest and such about stuff like that and its all the work of the devil and anyone who believes in that stuff is damned to an eternity of firey painful suffereing... hmmmm yummy! the thing is that she only talked to extreme christians and NOT to ANYONE of that belief!!! interesting how simple one side close minded people are! if it wasn't for jamie (my matron of honor and the best mans's wife and the girl's sister in-law) i might have beat the crap out of her! I hate people like that!
yeah can we say i'm stressed and tired and all around icky and would like to hide for a while! well anyways i'm going to go and do something!
so long!