(no subject)
How do you say goodbye to someone that everyone sees as not being the best sort of person where you see good left in them? Its something that needs to be done and has been something that I have been putting off for quite sometime! I find it much easier to say goodbye after people have said goodbye to me first, like Ash and that clan back home. Well now I am the one who has to say goodbye to please others! I guess this is when the greatest good really sucks! Well I do not even know where to begin with all of this, I mean there is email, aim, phone, here, and there are so many other things that need to be delt with! I mean I don't want to tell someone that they can never see me again, but then again I feel like it may harper my other relationships, so here goes!
There are certain people in the world that I will not allow myself to communiate with after my visit to emory!
okay if i keep telling myself that then I will begin to believe it! I want others around me to be happy and that means taking away part of my past so be it! I just need to stand up to myself and support myself completely in this! I refuse to continue to make the ones I love more uneasy! my girls, even my man, my parents, find it unsettling on different levels, some more then others!
Well that is enough on that issue, so here is what else is going on! One of my Best friends is graduation this saturday and I won't be there to witness it because I have to take a stupid state board emt test on the same damn day! anyways I will be up there the previous friday with chris and the mustang!!!! whooooooot!!! anyways I'll be on campus for a while because i want to show chris around campus so here knows where stories took place. I mean he is going to show me Bridgewater when we get a chance to drive up there so why not show him Emory?! Anyways other then all of this travelling things are great!
Chris is still as wonderful as ever and I am happy that I made the decision to move down here with him! I can't imagine how things would be without him! He is everything I have been looking for in a guy! I may not show it and express it as much as I should but I still feel like he is the most perfect person for me! I don't want to say he completes me because that means that I wasn't whole to begin with and I am! for once I am! but yet he does seem to be the sprinkles on my cake! I don't want to be with anyone but him and I won't let anyone come between us if I can help it! and I will fight if I need to for him! He is wonderful! I love him!
Well I guess that is enough of the gushy/mushy stuff so I better go and finish what I started somewhere else!
LOVES TO ALL
There are certain people in the world that I will not allow myself to communiate with after my visit to emory!
okay if i keep telling myself that then I will begin to believe it! I want others around me to be happy and that means taking away part of my past so be it! I just need to stand up to myself and support myself completely in this! I refuse to continue to make the ones I love more uneasy! my girls, even my man, my parents, find it unsettling on different levels, some more then others!
Well that is enough on that issue, so here is what else is going on! One of my Best friends is graduation this saturday and I won't be there to witness it because I have to take a stupid state board emt test on the same damn day! anyways I will be up there the previous friday with chris and the mustang!!!! whooooooot!!! anyways I'll be on campus for a while because i want to show chris around campus so here knows where stories took place. I mean he is going to show me Bridgewater when we get a chance to drive up there so why not show him Emory?! Anyways other then all of this travelling things are great!
Chris is still as wonderful as ever and I am happy that I made the decision to move down here with him! I can't imagine how things would be without him! He is everything I have been looking for in a guy! I may not show it and express it as much as I should but I still feel like he is the most perfect person for me! I don't want to say he completes me because that means that I wasn't whole to begin with and I am! for once I am! but yet he does seem to be the sprinkles on my cake! I don't want to be with anyone but him and I won't let anyone come between us if I can help it! and I will fight if I need to for him! He is wonderful! I love him!
Well I guess that is enough of the gushy/mushy stuff so I better go and finish what I started somewhere else!
LOVES TO ALL