Dreams
One of my frustrations in life seems to be that I have to be patient. In my relationship with Juan I was very patient and the result never came. I was actually advised several times to be less patient back than.
So now I had a whole training in being patient again with my apartment, which miraculously I am all patient about right now.
And than the worst part...Philip. As it was told me before "you'll need lots and lots of patience". Tell me about it.
I haven't heard from him anymore. I think he came back from his trip yesterday or so. I won't send anything myself, but of course I still think of him.
When I do the Tarot cards they tell me each time the same message. "Be patient, the result will be good". Also 1 card seems to be falling out each time when i think of Philip. It is the card that tells the end will be all happy, with possibly a marriage. It shows 3 people raising their drinks in a festive mood. To me it gives a hint that things will start at another gathering where we finally might meet.
Than again, maybe I am fooling myself big time. We'll see...
Anyway, what I wanted to say was this...last night I dreamed so strange and detailed. I dreamed I was some kind of rebel and I was hiding in a shop when a woman (a colleague of me) caught me and wanted to hold me until the police would come. So each time I escaped and tried to run and run, but I could never move (it was like running under water). So after 3 steps or so, she would always catch me again. This happened over and over again.
I wondered what it meant, because my dreams always have messages for me. So I analyzed it. Each person stands for myself. So I thought what this particular colleague means to me. She is the embodiment of slowness to me (I freak out on how slow she is in everything). So I tried to escape from things going slow, but every time it kept up with me and caught me in the end. So I think the message is clear... don't try to hurry up things, because it will catch up with you anyway. Things will happen when time is ready.
I looked up all these beautiful songs by Kate Bush yesterday. Wow, she is such a talented artist. You should really check out her video for "a woman's work". It is so sad and beautiful.
Tomorrow I'll be in Paris with 22°C. How nice to visit that city again. I have nice memories of Paris. There was this 1 trip with Yoeri where we shared a room with some freaky horny backpackers. And than I visited Paris with Juan which was also such a nice time. All in love. What is more romantic than Paris when you are in love? *sigh* good memories
So now I had a whole training in being patient again with my apartment, which miraculously I am all patient about right now.
And than the worst part...Philip. As it was told me before "you'll need lots and lots of patience". Tell me about it.
I haven't heard from him anymore. I think he came back from his trip yesterday or so. I won't send anything myself, but of course I still think of him.
When I do the Tarot cards they tell me each time the same message. "Be patient, the result will be good". Also 1 card seems to be falling out each time when i think of Philip. It is the card that tells the end will be all happy, with possibly a marriage. It shows 3 people raising their drinks in a festive mood. To me it gives a hint that things will start at another gathering where we finally might meet.
Than again, maybe I am fooling myself big time. We'll see...
Anyway, what I wanted to say was this...last night I dreamed so strange and detailed. I dreamed I was some kind of rebel and I was hiding in a shop when a woman (a colleague of me) caught me and wanted to hold me until the police would come. So each time I escaped and tried to run and run, but I could never move (it was like running under water). So after 3 steps or so, she would always catch me again. This happened over and over again.
I wondered what it meant, because my dreams always have messages for me. So I analyzed it. Each person stands for myself. So I thought what this particular colleague means to me. She is the embodiment of slowness to me (I freak out on how slow she is in everything). So I tried to escape from things going slow, but every time it kept up with me and caught me in the end. So I think the message is clear... don't try to hurry up things, because it will catch up with you anyway. Things will happen when time is ready.
I looked up all these beautiful songs by Kate Bush yesterday. Wow, she is such a talented artist. You should really check out her video for "a woman's work". It is so sad and beautiful.
Tomorrow I'll be in Paris with 22°C. How nice to visit that city again. I have nice memories of Paris. There was this 1 trip with Yoeri where we shared a room with some freaky horny backpackers. And than I visited Paris with Juan which was also such a nice time. All in love. What is more romantic than Paris when you are in love? *sigh* good memories