"Shes highly emotional, that one.." "All the good ones are."
you know why tv is shittier? because drugs get stronger. i feel like its that episode of south park where they do cough syrup to get better ideas/ratings on their show, and end up watching craigs "animals wearing hats with a wide angled lens"
except i am watching some modern day smut called Californication.
i just love his self loathing humor.
"Youre in love with the idea..the idea, of love."
fuck. i love this show.
i dont love the actual show, i love the idea of the relationships that are on the show.
Self loathing, humorous sex and whiskey addict, still passionately (yet humorously) in love with his daughters mother - the daughter of which is quite, submissive, observant, smart, and dark ; The soon to be step sister of becca (the daughter), who has fucked, and stalks (in a very intriguing manner) Moody (the main character).
How he tries to woo Karen, his daughters mother, is romantically funny - kissing her foot as he leaves and says "bye foot", or smells her hand when hes leaving because he says he misses her smell...
Annie called me earlier, then cory, then thunder just text me. He never texts me.
but im sick, so i dont see the point in answering or returning anything since i cant go answer - or rather, i wont. not this sick.
And logan called too. I think i subconsciously made that happen because earlier i was thinking about how logan and i were going to go see skyline together and how we talked every day, then it just stopped and he never texted me anymore.
then like 2 or 3 hours later he calls me.
if it had only been thunder and logan that called me, i would have thought it was for blow, (i dont know WHY everyone thinks i can get them coke, but.. whatever) but kittie•aids had called me before the both of them so i figured they were doing something tonight and wanted me to join since they havent seen me in ohhh... a few days?
at least 3 or 4ish.
I thought snorting that oxy was going to make me vomit, but it made me feel SO much better.
fuck i am so sick, but, that worked a bit.
I do wonder sometimes if i create the world around me with my subconscious; watching californication the guitar teacher in the background comments on how hes a sucker for Radiohead ; the logan thing ; and why does everyone decide to dial my number as soon as im sick as a dag and incapable of being the bubbly, partier that i am.
because lately, thats the only thing that makes me even remotely close to happy - being around amazing, beautifully spirited people, and getting high as an astronaut.
I want to fall in love!
If for "10 minutes or 10 years"...but i not only want to feel it, i want them to feel it; it doesnt have to be forever, it can be temporary, and i want him to realize that it doesnt have to be forever ; but i want, for that period of time, to be their all - because they would be mine.
Unconditional - for a limited time only.
Sounds redundant - but alas it isnt.
oh.
and boob tells me about the beta band ; i watch high fidelity and they play it and talk about them in it.
vierd.
except i am watching some modern day smut called Californication.
i just love his self loathing humor.
"Youre in love with the idea..the idea, of love."
fuck. i love this show.
i dont love the actual show, i love the idea of the relationships that are on the show.
Self loathing, humorous sex and whiskey addict, still passionately (yet humorously) in love with his daughters mother - the daughter of which is quite, submissive, observant, smart, and dark ; The soon to be step sister of becca (the daughter), who has fucked, and stalks (in a very intriguing manner) Moody (the main character).
How he tries to woo Karen, his daughters mother, is romantically funny - kissing her foot as he leaves and says "bye foot", or smells her hand when hes leaving because he says he misses her smell...
Annie called me earlier, then cory, then thunder just text me. He never texts me.
but im sick, so i dont see the point in answering or returning anything since i cant go answer - or rather, i wont. not this sick.
And logan called too. I think i subconsciously made that happen because earlier i was thinking about how logan and i were going to go see skyline together and how we talked every day, then it just stopped and he never texted me anymore.
then like 2 or 3 hours later he calls me.
if it had only been thunder and logan that called me, i would have thought it was for blow, (i dont know WHY everyone thinks i can get them coke, but.. whatever) but kittie•aids had called me before the both of them so i figured they were doing something tonight and wanted me to join since they havent seen me in ohhh... a few days?
at least 3 or 4ish.
I thought snorting that oxy was going to make me vomit, but it made me feel SO much better.
fuck i am so sick, but, that worked a bit.
I do wonder sometimes if i create the world around me with my subconscious; watching californication the guitar teacher in the background comments on how hes a sucker for Radiohead ; the logan thing ; and why does everyone decide to dial my number as soon as im sick as a dag and incapable of being the bubbly, partier that i am.
because lately, thats the only thing that makes me even remotely close to happy - being around amazing, beautifully spirited people, and getting high as an astronaut.
I want to fall in love!
If for "10 minutes or 10 years"...but i not only want to feel it, i want them to feel it; it doesnt have to be forever, it can be temporary, and i want him to realize that it doesnt have to be forever ; but i want, for that period of time, to be their all - because they would be mine.
Unconditional - for a limited time only.
Sounds redundant - but alas it isnt.
oh.
and boob tells me about the beta band ; i watch high fidelity and they play it and talk about them in it.
vierd.