sorry for the complaining but i gotta let it out
so this week has been a little weird. it has been so stressfull and just long, and not fun. i hate school as most of you know. and sorry guys for complaining... but this is a journal and i need to write out my feelings lol.
i have been overly stressed with homework, friends, guys, family, God, every thing! homework... i HATE it- i have had way to much, and i am so freaking burned out and its not even the first month of school. i miss hannah not being at johansen, i miss kenny and i not being close- we got into an argument friday- dang he made me maaaaaad! the part that made me really upset was when he said girls are to emotional, and made the example on how i was all tearyh eyed when he was talking about kristi- dudde he is gaaaaaay. lol- i miss brandon and i not even talking anymore. of cours ejust as friends but its like.. dude- what did i do, to not even be friends with you? i mean yeah ill take responsibility for maybe being weird but i have tried to break the ice. its just been lately too.. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh lol
but most of all i miss kristi. i mean its been goign through my head all week. she seriosuly is ALWAYS there to just make me happy- i mean dang, i wont see her for awhile.. shes my best friend. i saw her so much, and it always clicks how much i miss her. atleast i know shes going to have a great time and loovee sb as she already does! and im super de duper proud of that fo! like kenny says, i should just let everything stay inside and what have a build up!?
im at my grandmas house for the weekend- that has been fun. they are so sweet!!!! lol
ive always gotten extremely fat- and im not joking about it either. i weighed myself today and whoah dude- not good... along with pants at ae- i wentu p a size and they dont even FIT!
hann and i went to see princess diaries- that was fun!
i pulled a couple muscles in my back.. yippe...
tomorrow is church- :-D!
speaking of that... ive been praying for God to (as anson says) "break my heart so oi can make a change" and stuff like that... and hwoah dude.. god is seriously working with that..
he wants me to bring my friends to church. so many people this week have been coming to me with their problems and its really sad. they need God in their life... nobody else can complete them except for him. it hurts so bad but definietly going to be trying to have him speak through me- if you guys can, just be praying for me, jenn, family, the girls in my eteam, school, hannah.. and more and more
i have been overly stressed with homework, friends, guys, family, God, every thing! homework... i HATE it- i have had way to much, and i am so freaking burned out and its not even the first month of school. i miss hannah not being at johansen, i miss kenny and i not being close- we got into an argument friday- dang he made me maaaaaad! the part that made me really upset was when he said girls are to emotional, and made the example on how i was all tearyh eyed when he was talking about kristi- dudde he is gaaaaaay. lol- i miss brandon and i not even talking anymore. of cours ejust as friends but its like.. dude- what did i do, to not even be friends with you? i mean yeah ill take responsibility for maybe being weird but i have tried to break the ice. its just been lately too.. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh lol
but most of all i miss kristi. i mean its been goign through my head all week. she seriosuly is ALWAYS there to just make me happy- i mean dang, i wont see her for awhile.. shes my best friend. i saw her so much, and it always clicks how much i miss her. atleast i know shes going to have a great time and loovee sb as she already does! and im super de duper proud of that fo! like kenny says, i should just let everything stay inside and what have a build up!?
im at my grandmas house for the weekend- that has been fun. they are so sweet!!!! lol
ive always gotten extremely fat- and im not joking about it either. i weighed myself today and whoah dude- not good... along with pants at ae- i wentu p a size and they dont even FIT!
hann and i went to see princess diaries- that was fun!
i pulled a couple muscles in my back.. yippe...
tomorrow is church- :-D!
speaking of that... ive been praying for God to (as anson says) "break my heart so oi can make a change" and stuff like that... and hwoah dude.. god is seriously working with that..
he wants me to bring my friends to church. so many people this week have been coming to me with their problems and its really sad. they need God in their life... nobody else can complete them except for him. it hurts so bad but definietly going to be trying to have him speak through me- if you guys can, just be praying for me, jenn, family, the girls in my eteam, school, hannah.. and more and more