Calculus = Suicidal Tendencies? I think not.
Have you ever felt like you're destroying yourself?
That's how I feel when I work on Calculus right now. I don't know what's wrong with me, that I suck so horribly at calculus, but I just can't work on it, and don't want to go near it, because every time I sit down and start my homework, I get stuck about three problems in and get frustrated and feel like a fecking idiot and it makes me want to stop trying, because my whole life just seems to be based around becoming an engineer at this point. I don't want to quit, but I can't go on, and I don't know what else to do. I guess I don't even know how to pray about this. "God...make me a calculus genius." That's gonna go over real well--it hasn't yet anyway.
I want to do well in Calculus. But the understanding doesn't come to me anymore. Not even when I spend hours looking at a problem, thinking it over, trying different angles. This class is ruining Ian. And soon it's going to be time to make a decision on priorities.
I'm scared of that decision, too.
I get so fearful and frustrated that I just feel numb inside...and burnt out. That's how I feel right now and I can't deal with it anymore. *cry*
*Listens to roommate's music*
That's how I feel when I work on Calculus right now. I don't know what's wrong with me, that I suck so horribly at calculus, but I just can't work on it, and don't want to go near it, because every time I sit down and start my homework, I get stuck about three problems in and get frustrated and feel like a fecking idiot and it makes me want to stop trying, because my whole life just seems to be based around becoming an engineer at this point. I don't want to quit, but I can't go on, and I don't know what else to do. I guess I don't even know how to pray about this. "God...make me a calculus genius." That's gonna go over real well--it hasn't yet anyway.
I want to do well in Calculus. But the understanding doesn't come to me anymore. Not even when I spend hours looking at a problem, thinking it over, trying different angles. This class is ruining Ian. And soon it's going to be time to make a decision on priorities.
I'm scared of that decision, too.
I get so fearful and frustrated that I just feel numb inside...and burnt out. That's how I feel right now and I can't deal with it anymore. *cry*
*Listens to roommate's music*