Why it won't EVER happen to OP
Was reading about the difference between Life Partners and Soul Mates on this
website after seeing a quote on this from a mutual.
Of course I do not believe in that best friend shit. I learnt it the hard way. Yes I'm repeating a gigantic chunk of my posts because it is always on my mind.
You think you found someone decent but it turns out they are a bunch of stereotypes you hate or the opposite of what you hoped for because they suck.
I think that is also a fundamental reason why I can never, ever get on with anyone. You try to give and take but it doesn't work. You know you make mistakes and you back off. That's what I do 90% of the time. Also, the other party cannot relate to you and when you find a fellow yellow who could potentially fit your life partner or soul mate category - not necessarily in the romantic sense - you get excited to begin with, then realise okay s/he is just like everyone else and not worth it.
If this makes me an arrogant psychopath who is also very racist on who I hang out with then fine. I've been discriminated left and right by a quite a lot of native Chinese and BBCs, and hell even Westerners. They do not listen to me when I listen to them because I have no jams. I always listen to you as an INFJ so why can't you do the same for me? Anyway I know I barely hang or meet BBCs but the generation gap and somewhat differences in growing up makes it that much trickier to mesh that I end up being a Poker Face to them and Ang Mo. Then have to preserve my heart for those who deserve it more. Yeah this is why I shut down at all my jobs. You expect much but I ain't a clever FOB and since I'm born in a Western country I'm apparently not native enough for you East and West people.
I hate serial interrupters as well. Like stfu. And yeah okay fine you can't connect to me because you weren't treated like shit while growing up for being a "Chink" or being different in your own alternative way. Good for you pal but don't shun my life experiences down because I'm not as relevant as you and you often forget the things I tell you which are vital in this supposed friendship. I'm from a diasporic community and I want to reach out to those kindred spirits in that same place. I give you my heart, my trust...if you can't appreciate it please go back to your Ang Mo, FOB or whatever gang you prefer to be with.
Also...if you think I'm like those distrustful Chinese because you didn't like my ideas and did not want to share the fact you're going to a concert overseas to see a group (when I even did most of the posts back in my day as a blogger) then F U. Remember what I said about how a large number of Hallyu blogs are catered for Westerners only, especially Hak Gwei and Gwei lo...there's your proof
This should just go into a rap or something O_O
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