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ooh la la... thanks for the help gang. My journal is now much cooler looking... mabey not cool... but cooler!
I have so much to do this week... so many assignments due... I hope I don't pull a "me" and respond to the increased pressure with apathy. I need decent grades if I ever hope to get into the program I want for next year. Man, I'm a huge fuck up when it comes to school. The funny thing is, it's all so very easy. Go to class, do the odd assignment... like what the fuck is so hard about that? I don't know, but I find my self crippled beneath the lightest load. It's not that I don't care... I do, so very much. But time and time again I watch myself fuck up and then eat myself up with guilt and stress. I am self destructive and I hate it!
I have so much to do this week... so many assignments due... I hope I don't pull a "me" and respond to the increased pressure with apathy. I need decent grades if I ever hope to get into the program I want for next year. Man, I'm a huge fuck up when it comes to school. The funny thing is, it's all so very easy. Go to class, do the odd assignment... like what the fuck is so hard about that? I don't know, but I find my self crippled beneath the lightest load. It's not that I don't care... I do, so very much. But time and time again I watch myself fuck up and then eat myself up with guilt and stress. I am self destructive and I hate it!