He Wishes For the Cloths of Heaven
What is life like for someone who has done so much so fast? I ask myself this question and ponder over it's answer often. I am only 28 but I have done a lot of things some people wait their entire lives to do. This creates a problem because it often times leads to being disinterested in things others have a desire to do.
So what can a person do to stay excited about redoing or revisiting past experiences in life? How does a person who has done and seen so much keep from getting bored? Escapism in the form of media, games, literature are some of the first things that come to mind. Secondly, we can seek out the extremes in areas we have already experienced life. Something as simple as base jumping since you have already been skydiving and more.
I find it difficult sometimes to get excited about doing things I have done so many times before. The crime I have committed is moving through part of my life so fast that now I feel like there is not much to do. There isn't anywhere I want to travel right now save visiting friends. Most popular music and media doesn't interest me for a variety of reasons (lack of quality or depth, etc) and I find school to be fun sometimes and other times boring. So boring I decided to do a double major just to make things more interesting.
I seek to reignite that fire and drive to seek out new and exciting experiences. I have become somewhat settled and haven't moved in three years. This is contrast with nearly ten years ago where I lived in three different countries over the course of a year. That coupled with the baggage and perception of life after war makes it difficult to see a path. One thing I have found that excites me and makes my life exhilarating is actually having a long-term relationship.
It's so different and foreign to a person who moved every year. It's very difficult while also being very rewarding. The challenge is to learn how to be in a relationship as an adult when you life has been focused on the next place, the next girl, the next battle, the next experience. I head off into the great unknown of this life facing the daily wonderment of experiencing love without the threat of death, injury or distance.