Morbid Euphoria
I've been less depressed, so that's a good thing. I've been eating less and writing music to feel good physically and mentally. Visiting my parents to get away from scary northerners was my weekend. Trying to exorcise my demons out before heading back to Munster. Dreading the job search, looking forward to income. Thinking of other music ideas besides Wolfhollow. Reading a pagan book Ryan let me borrow. Drinking beer when I shouldn't be because that's how I gained thirty pounds, and I'm trying to lose forty. Trying to stay positive and yet NOT lose my edge. Completely caught in a whirlwind of emotion. Driving myself insane for art's sake. In need of a horror movie, junk food, jager etc etc...
I'm ready for anything. I'm letting the past be what it is. Even if it haunts me I choose to hold my head above the water and look for tomorrow, and look at everything that would make others envious of me. I'm choosing to be more confident and selfish for my own health. I need to love myself more. I need my own love to be complete, so I can be happy even when shit is dealt to me.
I'm ready for anything. I'm letting the past be what it is. Even if it haunts me I choose to hold my head above the water and look for tomorrow, and look at everything that would make others envious of me. I'm choosing to be more confident and selfish for my own health. I need to love myself more. I need my own love to be complete, so I can be happy even when shit is dealt to me.