attitude cool, degrees below zero
walking back from work today it felt like summer. it's warm out compared to how it has been recently and the skies have been clear and blue.
walking home with no commitments, nothing to do and probably noone to talk to until tomorrow morning when i go to work reminded me of so much. gloucester the summer of first year uni, working in the post office -- a job with the least responsibility possible. bath towards the end of the second year, full of issues, isolation and empty of ideas about what i wanted to do.
both cases wandering around whichever place i happened to be in enjoying the fading daylight, my own company and, well, not a whole lot more.
i end up thinking a lot about uni. last year spent dealing with work as it came along, keeping my body which didn't want to eat or sleep going, getting along with the people i lived with AND concentrating my mind on wandering what i wasn't offerring a girl whom i was convinced i would be perfect with. now it's all very good to think to myself "tom! stop being an idiot and get over yourself." but then i was doing it all for the first time and didn't know how to be content just to draw lines.
walking home with no commitments, nothing to do and probably noone to talk to until tomorrow morning when i go to work reminded me of so much. gloucester the summer of first year uni, working in the post office -- a job with the least responsibility possible. bath towards the end of the second year, full of issues, isolation and empty of ideas about what i wanted to do.
both cases wandering around whichever place i happened to be in enjoying the fading daylight, my own company and, well, not a whole lot more.
i end up thinking a lot about uni. last year spent dealing with work as it came along, keeping my body which didn't want to eat or sleep going, getting along with the people i lived with AND concentrating my mind on wandering what i wasn't offerring a girl whom i was convinced i would be perfect with. now it's all very good to think to myself "tom! stop being an idiot and get over yourself." but then i was doing it all for the first time and didn't know how to be content just to draw lines.