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wow. being 21 is wierd.
i've always been the type to drink when i go out. but now that i'm 21, all i do is drink. i go to bar's now. i go to see a football game and drink. i go out to eat, and i drink. i'm at home, and my fridge is filled to the brim with alchohol.
it's kinda scaring me. i don't want to turn into an alchoholic. i don't want to end up like my father.
my mom told me today that it's normal for me to be drinking as much as i am. she said after turning 21, it's all you really do. but it'll start tapering off the older you get. it kinda relieved me to hear her say that. i love my mom.
got rid of the Everquest shit. i'm paying over $20 a month for that bullshit. it's pretty pathethic, seeing as i don't play, and it's completely against the goals i have set for myself.
i've met a new friend. his names Josh, and he's one hell of a guy. This guy is pretty much set for life. He recentely graduated Harvard with a degree in business. he drives a 2005 lexus, and has a 5-year plan that anyone would be jealous of. he's got his shit together.
then i look in the mirror. all i see is an out of shape loser. I could be earning 2x the $$$ i get from costco if i tried. but i don't. i waste my money on the worst things possible. im lazy. i don't take care of things in a timely matter. My car has been sitting outside my apartment for months. I could easily fix it for almost nothing. I owe money to a CreditCard company. I owe my family money. And what have i done to fix these problems? pssht.
it's time i stop hiding behind others and step up and take control of MY LIFE.
i have come to realize that if i don't act now, i will never be happy, and i'm sure i'll keep spiriling downwards. So i have some resolutions that will take effect immediately.
1.Start working more and making more $$$. i could seriously make $800 a paycheck if i really tried. this is the main goal, because with accomplishing this one, i can tackle my next goals.
2. Start working out again. I'm gonna start getting back into shape. I'm joining a gym nearby, and will go back to my old regime. i was happy then. i want to be happy again.
3. Start paying back my credit card. i don't owe alot, but it's getting out of hand, and i need to get them off my back.
4. Continue paying back family. i love them, and although they aren't pressuring me, it's time to step up and show them i appreciate their kindness.
5. Fix my car. I could probally spend $80 and have my car up and running. While i don't need it badly right now, it's still something that needs to be taken care of.
My brother and i have been talking about getting our shit together. and now seems just as good of a time as any. Once we get everything straightend out, we want to think about buying a house. this apartment rent thing sucks. The way we see it, paying rent is the same thing as taking $700 every month, throwing it on the ground, pouring gasoline on it and setting it ablaze, and doing Irish jigs around it.
it's time i move on and grow up. i hope i can stick to my resolutions. i know i have friends who will support me.
ok, i'm off to bed. later.
i've always been the type to drink when i go out. but now that i'm 21, all i do is drink. i go to bar's now. i go to see a football game and drink. i go out to eat, and i drink. i'm at home, and my fridge is filled to the brim with alchohol.
it's kinda scaring me. i don't want to turn into an alchoholic. i don't want to end up like my father.
my mom told me today that it's normal for me to be drinking as much as i am. she said after turning 21, it's all you really do. but it'll start tapering off the older you get. it kinda relieved me to hear her say that. i love my mom.
got rid of the Everquest shit. i'm paying over $20 a month for that bullshit. it's pretty pathethic, seeing as i don't play, and it's completely against the goals i have set for myself.
i've met a new friend. his names Josh, and he's one hell of a guy. This guy is pretty much set for life. He recentely graduated Harvard with a degree in business. he drives a 2005 lexus, and has a 5-year plan that anyone would be jealous of. he's got his shit together.
then i look in the mirror. all i see is an out of shape loser. I could be earning 2x the $$$ i get from costco if i tried. but i don't. i waste my money on the worst things possible. im lazy. i don't take care of things in a timely matter. My car has been sitting outside my apartment for months. I could easily fix it for almost nothing. I owe money to a CreditCard company. I owe my family money. And what have i done to fix these problems? pssht.
it's time i stop hiding behind others and step up and take control of MY LIFE.
i have come to realize that if i don't act now, i will never be happy, and i'm sure i'll keep spiriling downwards. So i have some resolutions that will take effect immediately.
1.Start working more and making more $$$. i could seriously make $800 a paycheck if i really tried. this is the main goal, because with accomplishing this one, i can tackle my next goals.
2. Start working out again. I'm gonna start getting back into shape. I'm joining a gym nearby, and will go back to my old regime. i was happy then. i want to be happy again.
3. Start paying back my credit card. i don't owe alot, but it's getting out of hand, and i need to get them off my back.
4. Continue paying back family. i love them, and although they aren't pressuring me, it's time to step up and show them i appreciate their kindness.
5. Fix my car. I could probally spend $80 and have my car up and running. While i don't need it badly right now, it's still something that needs to be taken care of.
My brother and i have been talking about getting our shit together. and now seems just as good of a time as any. Once we get everything straightend out, we want to think about buying a house. this apartment rent thing sucks. The way we see it, paying rent is the same thing as taking $700 every month, throwing it on the ground, pouring gasoline on it and setting it ablaze, and doing Irish jigs around it.
it's time i move on and grow up. i hope i can stick to my resolutions. i know i have friends who will support me.
ok, i'm off to bed. later.