i grew up a fuckin screw up [ and still am]
yesterday i came home from work, and i weighed myself.
very bad idea.
the scale read 125.0
i nearly passed out.
after all the pain i went through to get to 118
i went into the living room, i knew what i had to do.
i put on shorts and a beater.
i turned on the TV.
i smacked the shit out of my flabby legs for about an hour.
they were swollen red,i didnt even think i could get that red [ im black]
i did a 40 minute pilate cardio routine on ON DEMAND.
it hurt so bad.
i cried while doing it, but i wasnt gonna let myself stop.
afterwards, my legs hurt so bad, that it hurt to stand.
i HAD to punish myself.
i drank some water and went to sleep.
this morning i didnt weight myself.
im going to do some yoga and take some laxatives.
even though i didnt eat anything yet today, i have to let myself feel empty.
im going to fast as long as i can today.
im gonna get back down to 120 by the end of the day.,
very bad idea.
the scale read 125.0
i nearly passed out.
after all the pain i went through to get to 118
i went into the living room, i knew what i had to do.
i put on shorts and a beater.
i turned on the TV.
i smacked the shit out of my flabby legs for about an hour.
they were swollen red,i didnt even think i could get that red [ im black]
i did a 40 minute pilate cardio routine on ON DEMAND.
it hurt so bad.
i cried while doing it, but i wasnt gonna let myself stop.
afterwards, my legs hurt so bad, that it hurt to stand.
i HAD to punish myself.
i drank some water and went to sleep.
this morning i didnt weight myself.
im going to do some yoga and take some laxatives.
even though i didnt eat anything yet today, i have to let myself feel empty.
im going to fast as long as i can today.
im gonna get back down to 120 by the end of the day.,