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i've been thinking a lot lately. so much has changed in these past 3 months. it's so weird not being with my ex boyfriend because that's what i was so used to for eleven months. i can't go to the mall anymore, because i'll get a weird feeling..but i have to go soon, i just..idk? i regret monday night. i was extremely fucked up and was passing out and almost got ben into an accident. he took such good care of me, and told me i should NEVER take them..i shouldn't have. i'm so lucky to have such good friends. he told me he'd rather crash his car because he can fix his car, but not me. he kept trying to keeep me awake. we went to micky d's and josh lit a garbage can on fire. we pretty much were all around the town. i'm just kinda bleh right now. i don't even really remember monday except for the playground i ran around on. :/ heh. ugh, i need some sleep. i think ben's coming to hang out with me for a little while after school & josh is taking me out later on. ugh.. i should go run some people over. :[ jelousy kills..that's all i have to say.