you solved the box, we came. now you must douche with us!
like i told candace earlier...now that i've tasted blood, i want more
not that i havent known it all along, but this place is the root and core of all my frustrations
the past few days were so liberating and honest
it was the first time, really, that i felt totally free
not to indicate that my parents are oppressive, because anyone who knows them, knows that is the furthest from the truth
but free from all that holds me back, and by that i mean tight ass ville
i mean, it took nearly six months before i had any real fun here
but a mere few moments when i was visiting candace and jim
and the best part about it was, it was continuous the whole way through
and im glad that candace and i discovered the "scene" together
it was such a positive experience
and i see nothing but positive things happening when i leave this place behind and make mobile my new home
for those of you in panama city, its not that i dont like you anymore, or that i like them any better
its just that this is something i have to do for myself
which has been the problem all along, living for others
and all the people there were so(what else but) positive
when i was puking, jim was there to comfort me, and didnt make me feel like an ass about it
and that is too cool
and candace was there to instigate the insanity
but that's neither here nor there, because there's never a dull moment when we are together anyway
and then there is holly and all her friends
they were sort of symbolic of all the people i always wanted to know, but didnt for whatever reason and now
i finally feel like a part of something
and in the past, i've never really had guy friends, but jim has totally changed that
as i expressed several times friday night, i love him
he is sorta like the equalizer to all the estrogen that im constantly surrounded by
and if for nothing else, he planted initial the thought of my being there in the first place
and for that, i am incredibly grateful
but back to why i hate this place
its just aweful; i've been depressed since day one and have never been able to completly shake that
until last friday
not that i havent known it all along, but this place is the root and core of all my frustrations
the past few days were so liberating and honest
it was the first time, really, that i felt totally free
not to indicate that my parents are oppressive, because anyone who knows them, knows that is the furthest from the truth
but free from all that holds me back, and by that i mean tight ass ville
i mean, it took nearly six months before i had any real fun here
but a mere few moments when i was visiting candace and jim
and the best part about it was, it was continuous the whole way through
and im glad that candace and i discovered the "scene" together
it was such a positive experience
and i see nothing but positive things happening when i leave this place behind and make mobile my new home
for those of you in panama city, its not that i dont like you anymore, or that i like them any better
its just that this is something i have to do for myself
which has been the problem all along, living for others
and all the people there were so(what else but) positive
when i was puking, jim was there to comfort me, and didnt make me feel like an ass about it
and that is too cool
and candace was there to instigate the insanity
but that's neither here nor there, because there's never a dull moment when we are together anyway
and then there is holly and all her friends
they were sort of symbolic of all the people i always wanted to know, but didnt for whatever reason and now
i finally feel like a part of something
and in the past, i've never really had guy friends, but jim has totally changed that
as i expressed several times friday night, i love him
he is sorta like the equalizer to all the estrogen that im constantly surrounded by
and if for nothing else, he planted initial the thought of my being there in the first place
and for that, i am incredibly grateful
but back to why i hate this place
its just aweful; i've been depressed since day one and have never been able to completly shake that
until last friday