it has a new name captain
it has been named.....the autopilot switch waiting to be flipped on. *click* no not genji. no not asphixia. but the one entrusted with loneliness. when all the others have left. it is him who closes my eyes at night. it is him who tells me when to take my book. i dont know if he would have sided with left or right. only that he stands in the center of the tracks. he is my new face. or lack there of. now that the searchlights have been turned off with the killer still stalking indoors. *click* why should i fight it? you wont be there to tell me to stop. you wont even know. theres no yes or no at this time. im in the dark from this point on. theres no pulling back...only down. i curse the day....i ever met myself. in a dark room i wept my own tears from having seen myself as who i am.
Hannah i would have to be calling you every night im not asleep to pour out my soul to you again just to keep myself sane. i dont want to pull you all down with it. but i dont need to worry cuz no one will be seeing me.
i miss her so much now. it didnt hit me till this morning. until i was writhing on the floor did i realize i would not be able to see her for so long. but the memories of the day before kept me on my feet while i was sitting in pain. with my arm around her....her hand in mine....this is what will pull me through the summer. these memories. oh if only i could add another to the list at this current moment but no.
half due to my new found friend. whom i have only briefly spoken of. but im pleased to even talk of him as the switches dont respond. *click* *click* *click* "sir im going down to the lower deck to run myself through, because theres no captain at this ship any longer" my pen is like a part of my hand now. i never let go of it. its my only solid proof of myself.
it has been named
*click* four out of us five have shot and come up empty. there is one left. your turn. ha. ha.
oh at this point a *click* is all i wanted to hear...ha. ha. funny how these things are
it has been named.
i wish i could live every day the rest of my life waking up to the day before. every given day with her. every day is my yesterday. and i would never have to wake up to today.
*click*
i want it to be over already. ive had but a taste but it is already forcing me to bite off my tongue. im sorry mr i hate this time of year.
there are no longer two but three. or rather one. as two have left. for i dont know how long. but it is at least good to know who i am.
is this another one of those? no. it is too lost to be added to our files. the lack of order cant even be classified. all the hands are grabbing my arms and pulling me into the water. "no,no,no,no,no,no not yet. i still have hope" "oh but your hope vainished the second you let me in your door. i have been named.
the switch's choices read "power off" and "power off" well i have to choose one of them as there is no median. *click*
i have been named
this cant be how it is.
i have been named
i cant take it
i have been named
i have been named
i have been named
i have been named
i have been named
i have been named
i have been named
i have been named
i am Spartan
happy birthday to me. my present: myself unmasked. "hello ha. ha."
Hannah i would have to be calling you every night im not asleep to pour out my soul to you again just to keep myself sane. i dont want to pull you all down with it. but i dont need to worry cuz no one will be seeing me.
i miss her so much now. it didnt hit me till this morning. until i was writhing on the floor did i realize i would not be able to see her for so long. but the memories of the day before kept me on my feet while i was sitting in pain. with my arm around her....her hand in mine....this is what will pull me through the summer. these memories. oh if only i could add another to the list at this current moment but no.
half due to my new found friend. whom i have only briefly spoken of. but im pleased to even talk of him as the switches dont respond. *click* *click* *click* "sir im going down to the lower deck to run myself through, because theres no captain at this ship any longer" my pen is like a part of my hand now. i never let go of it. its my only solid proof of myself.
it has been named
*click* four out of us five have shot and come up empty. there is one left. your turn. ha. ha.
oh at this point a *click* is all i wanted to hear...ha. ha. funny how these things are
it has been named.
i wish i could live every day the rest of my life waking up to the day before. every given day with her. every day is my yesterday. and i would never have to wake up to today.
*click*
i want it to be over already. ive had but a taste but it is already forcing me to bite off my tongue. im sorry mr i hate this time of year.
there are no longer two but three. or rather one. as two have left. for i dont know how long. but it is at least good to know who i am.
is this another one of those? no. it is too lost to be added to our files. the lack of order cant even be classified. all the hands are grabbing my arms and pulling me into the water. "no,no,no,no,no,no not yet. i still have hope" "oh but your hope vainished the second you let me in your door. i have been named.
the switch's choices read "power off" and "power off" well i have to choose one of them as there is no median. *click*
i have been named
this cant be how it is.
i have been named
i cant take it
i have been named
i have been named
i have been named
i have been named
i have been named
i have been named
i have been named
i have been named
i am Spartan
happy birthday to me. my present: myself unmasked. "hello ha. ha."