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Well, I'm back! My computer is FINALLY running properly. Let's just hope it stays that way. So far, so good. :)
So the last few days have been fairly interesting. I think I'll leave out the major details for now. I'm kind of on a rollercoaster between feeling really awesome and feeling really down.
Obviously, when something new comes up in life, it's very easy to become insecure, uncertain, anxious, etc. These are the things I am feeling right now. I have had some reassurance that everything is working out fine and it will all be okay no matter what happens. I am trying extremely hard not to be insecure and just to enjoy each day as it comes. I'm doing much better today and as the week grows on, I'll be stronger and stronger. I just don't want to drive myself crazy in the meantime.
I know my problem is that I am trying to protect myself. I am afraid of getting hurt. And who isn't? I have been hurt a lot, but have made it through every single one of those times and the times in the future will be no different. But that is why I am doing this.. I am trying to put a wall up around me so I don't get hurt. But I am thinking that the wall will only set me further apart and won't let me have fun with this at all.
I just want to say thanks to everybody for being such a great friend to me and for offering me such wonderful advice. You guys are a great shoulder and a great ear for me. I really appreciate it.
I will be okay. I just need to learn to stop thinking so much, making assumptions, and expecting things that really shouldn't be there. I can do it.
So the last few days have been fairly interesting. I think I'll leave out the major details for now. I'm kind of on a rollercoaster between feeling really awesome and feeling really down.
Obviously, when something new comes up in life, it's very easy to become insecure, uncertain, anxious, etc. These are the things I am feeling right now. I have had some reassurance that everything is working out fine and it will all be okay no matter what happens. I am trying extremely hard not to be insecure and just to enjoy each day as it comes. I'm doing much better today and as the week grows on, I'll be stronger and stronger. I just don't want to drive myself crazy in the meantime.
I know my problem is that I am trying to protect myself. I am afraid of getting hurt. And who isn't? I have been hurt a lot, but have made it through every single one of those times and the times in the future will be no different. But that is why I am doing this.. I am trying to put a wall up around me so I don't get hurt. But I am thinking that the wall will only set me further apart and won't let me have fun with this at all.
I just want to say thanks to everybody for being such a great friend to me and for offering me such wonderful advice. You guys are a great shoulder and a great ear for me. I really appreciate it.
I will be okay. I just need to learn to stop thinking so much, making assumptions, and expecting things that really shouldn't be there. I can do it.