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okay, so.
i've been too busy lately. way too busy. and it's not as if it would even be considered busy to a normal person, but to me it's busy. because i used to sit here and do nothing all day and that's not me anymore. most of the time, anyway. i go to school, go to work, and then come home and sleep. five days a week. and then every other weekend i'm out non-stop having "a social life" or something. so every two weeks i get a break, and that's when sarah's in berea. things slow down a lot when she leaves. i guess it's because she's the type of person who can't sit still for longer than five minutes, so she drags people out to do stuff. i act like it bothers me, but i really like feeling like i have friends. i mean, it's fun. i used to bitch about people who were happy spending time with other people. i thought they were weak and codependent or whatever. but now i understand why people do it. because it feels good.
so anyway, today is my off day. and it's really an off day, since my dad and lorrie went to a basketball game. and everyone is busy or gone entirely so it's just me and my dog. and it's been okay i guess, but i'm starting to dislike being home alone and doing nothing. time off is good, but time seems to slow down drastically when i don't have anything to do. i don't like that. (which is weird, because this used to be my favorite thing to do. just sit around by myself. i think i'm changing.)
i do miss my online time though.
anyway, i guess i'll be reverting back to my old ways after next week. partially, anyway. the office is closing and the special congressional election is on the 17th. my last day is next friday. and i'm really upset about it. i didn't even think that i liked working, but i guess on some level i kind of do. because at least i feel somewhat needed there. i'm responsible for stuff. i enjoy that. pamela was in town thursday and friday and she seems to think that she might be able to get me a job with the new congressman if the right one gets elected. heh. i don't know though, i don't really think it'd be the same without all of the same people. plus i just really hate both of the candidates... i think i'd feel slimy working for either of them. but we'll see i guess. it's a nice offer anyway. at least she likes me enough to try to help me out.
but who knows how long it could take for the congressman (or woman... one of the candidates is female) to start hiring anyway. especially part-time. in the meantime, i need a job. so i guess i need to start gathering applications and setting up interviews. how much am i not looking forward to that? god, i'm going to get stuck working at some worthless piece-of-shit place. i was extremely lucky to have enough connections to get me such a good job before. not everyone my age has that kind of opportunity. and i'm spoiled. i know what it's like to have a good job, and i don't want to settle for anything less. sigh. thinking about it makes my head hurt. things should just stay the way they are. change is bad.
oh, and on the subject of change, ed ended last night. i'm sad. it was a good show. tv is going to suck so much next year. every single fucking show that i watch is going to be gone next year. well, almost. i guess maybe it'll force me to stop being such a tv-obsessed loser. because i watch too much of it. it can't be healthy. yeah, no. not healthy. :p
i guess i'll go (finally) buy my cd-changer today. there's no reason not to do it. i even pulled the money out of my account and everything. i guess now i just have to stop being lazy and go do it. i wonder if they'll be able to install it for me. i intend to go to best buy, i guess. only because i don't know where else to go. hm. i think i'm going to be pissed off if i buy it and i'm not able to get it installed right away. because it's completely wortheless just sitting in the box. maybe i'll take it to john. he'd know how to do it. maybe. he works for toyota. and volkswagens... are almost toyotas. except not at all.
i've been too busy lately. way too busy. and it's not as if it would even be considered busy to a normal person, but to me it's busy. because i used to sit here and do nothing all day and that's not me anymore. most of the time, anyway. i go to school, go to work, and then come home and sleep. five days a week. and then every other weekend i'm out non-stop having "a social life" or something. so every two weeks i get a break, and that's when sarah's in berea. things slow down a lot when she leaves. i guess it's because she's the type of person who can't sit still for longer than five minutes, so she drags people out to do stuff. i act like it bothers me, but i really like feeling like i have friends. i mean, it's fun. i used to bitch about people who were happy spending time with other people. i thought they were weak and codependent or whatever. but now i understand why people do it. because it feels good.
so anyway, today is my off day. and it's really an off day, since my dad and lorrie went to a basketball game. and everyone is busy or gone entirely so it's just me and my dog. and it's been okay i guess, but i'm starting to dislike being home alone and doing nothing. time off is good, but time seems to slow down drastically when i don't have anything to do. i don't like that. (which is weird, because this used to be my favorite thing to do. just sit around by myself. i think i'm changing.)
i do miss my online time though.
anyway, i guess i'll be reverting back to my old ways after next week. partially, anyway. the office is closing and the special congressional election is on the 17th. my last day is next friday. and i'm really upset about it. i didn't even think that i liked working, but i guess on some level i kind of do. because at least i feel somewhat needed there. i'm responsible for stuff. i enjoy that. pamela was in town thursday and friday and she seems to think that she might be able to get me a job with the new congressman if the right one gets elected. heh. i don't know though, i don't really think it'd be the same without all of the same people. plus i just really hate both of the candidates... i think i'd feel slimy working for either of them. but we'll see i guess. it's a nice offer anyway. at least she likes me enough to try to help me out.
but who knows how long it could take for the congressman (or woman... one of the candidates is female) to start hiring anyway. especially part-time. in the meantime, i need a job. so i guess i need to start gathering applications and setting up interviews. how much am i not looking forward to that? god, i'm going to get stuck working at some worthless piece-of-shit place. i was extremely lucky to have enough connections to get me such a good job before. not everyone my age has that kind of opportunity. and i'm spoiled. i know what it's like to have a good job, and i don't want to settle for anything less. sigh. thinking about it makes my head hurt. things should just stay the way they are. change is bad.
oh, and on the subject of change, ed ended last night. i'm sad. it was a good show. tv is going to suck so much next year. every single fucking show that i watch is going to be gone next year. well, almost. i guess maybe it'll force me to stop being such a tv-obsessed loser. because i watch too much of it. it can't be healthy. yeah, no. not healthy. :p
i guess i'll go (finally) buy my cd-changer today. there's no reason not to do it. i even pulled the money out of my account and everything. i guess now i just have to stop being lazy and go do it. i wonder if they'll be able to install it for me. i intend to go to best buy, i guess. only because i don't know where else to go. hm. i think i'm going to be pissed off if i buy it and i'm not able to get it installed right away. because it's completely wortheless just sitting in the box. maybe i'll take it to john. he'd know how to do it. maybe. he works for toyota. and volkswagens... are almost toyotas. except not at all.