back in where?!
yeah. no i guess i ve to weak up from my dreamness.. and fuck its so weird to realize th reality. On tues sayn good bye was so hard... dez sue and kat brought me to the airport.. that was really cooll.. thx guys.. and san for ya text.. yeah anyways.. then on the plaine... wier wierd weird.. i sat b7w these old men who didnt really talked at all... and then I couldnt sleep.. so i looked at all our pics... and yeah fuckn.. I cried so much b7w these 10hrs flight...it was simple horrible... and really uncomftrable.. anyways.. yeah and when i got my baggade back.. I noticed that my shampoo opened it self and went all over my stuff.. haha taht was so typical.. but at least it smelled kinda good *lol* ... my sis and my best friend who was also in US got me.. it was sooooo weird. wow i dont want to know how many times i used that word toady. dang it i am still so confused.. I am just emotionally so exhausted.. I MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when i then surpriesed my friends.. hahas that was really funny.. but sill i felt so.. ahh i want to go back....i dont know.. its just so confusing and fucked up!!!!!!!.. i know thats life.. and i guess i get used to things again.. but yeah.. and i fuckn cant sleep.. not at all... but wow.. i smoked soo much... i really cant describe it... on the one side i feel like i wasnt gone at all.. but then i feel missing all you and plamtrees ocean.. 711 and just everything...fuck dude... i am depressed .. just cant deal with it.. i knowit will get better somehow.. but yaps... but the good thing is that my best friend how also just came back.. understands me soo good..s o we kinda miss everything together,,, otherwise i would just die straught.. dang it... y eah. anyways... i hope you gus are doing well...see ya soon, lotsa love from weird germany