dream a little dream for me.
Well i fell asleep at 11 last night , its pretty good compaired to 5 in the mornin. Ive realized it okay just to hang around the house in my p.js once in a while. Today is my last day off for a while well actually i get next saturday off but by the time that rolls around it will have felt like an eternity of hell. Sometimes i cant wait for my real life to start and i say that because i refuse to beleive that i will still be in the same boat in the future. In my future i will have a kick ass carreer where i can dress up for work and a nice crib with whicker furniture in the bedroom and a room with beanbag chairs and a bunch of comfy pillows, with a nice ass hooka in the middle even if i dont smoke, ive always wanted a room like that. One day i will have an adorable toodler running around the house asking a million questions that i cant answer, but i wont be like a parent more like an older cool person, come on everone had that one cool person when they were growing up. Ill let my kid decide theyre own future i will just lead them the way. And of course i want someone to come home to and eat dinner with and tell them stories about my crazy day and have good laughs with. It wont be like a real mariage where they just got married because they had too like ever one els in the world. It will be true uncompromising love, where everyday we have new expirences and we will always be totally into eachother. I want to be wanted by this guy forever, kind of feeling. Eventhough thats the future and i may already know this speacial guy and have the dreams the time isnt right and not for a while. One day i know ill have my dream so why not wait and dream a little more.