15 going on 30.
In preparation for my 30th birthday I have been in HYPER EXTREME EMO MODE. Much like what 99% of this journal entails. Woe is me! And an even bigger woe to the fact that I'm over twice as old as I was when I started writing in this thing.
Wow.
Well yeah so I'm being emo. I'm thinking lots about past loves, past friendships, listening to old music, watching old movies. I told you it was extreme. John, I think, is mostly over it. He's definitely a forward thinker and I'm well the opposite. I just want to be 15 again for a day. I want to feel the youth but retain the wisdom. I want to be young, wild, and free again. Just for a little bit. Then I promise I'll go back to old, calm, contained Elizabeth.
In the mean time I thought I'd give an ode to my old post stylings:
Today was cool.
Mimi kept the baby so John, Joshua, Roland, and I did errands. (I'm so unbelievably interesting these days). We had a super successful 4th of July party yesterday! Yay! Tomorrow we WERE planning on going to the beach, but we've got some crappy beach weather so nvm. Cuddle up and do house stuffs it is! A little under two weeks until we go to Virginia!! I'm so excited to see my Grandmother (who is turning the very distinguished age of 90). I'm excited for family. And for mountains! John is too. We're definitely mountain people. In the mean time, we're just over here surviving the kids being on Summer break. I'm doing so-so at being a SAHM while they're on break and trying desperately to not let Roland consume massive amounts of screen time. Lord give me strength. Theodore is doing great! Potentially, starting potty training. He's definitely getting the concept (one poop and two pee pees so far!!) He's in swim lessons with Suzi (just like J&R did) and is doing great! John and I are re-starting and finishing Financial Peace University to GET. OUR. FINANCES. ON. POINT! I'm VERRRRRRY happy about this. We watched the intro and did a rough written budget after listing out all of our debts. I'll put it here. It's a little over $58,000. Not terrible, not great. We'll get there. I feel his on-boardness this time around. And I feel my relaxation going in to it. God has been moving in my life these last few months. I was always so quick to deny my need for anything and quick to point out what others needed, but He's really shown me my shortcomings and allowed me grace to be able to accept them and therefore challenge them with His. I'm grateful for that.
Ok, well that got a little adult. But I guess that's just the way it goes when you're leaving your 20s. T.T
-E
Wow.
Well yeah so I'm being emo. I'm thinking lots about past loves, past friendships, listening to old music, watching old movies. I told you it was extreme. John, I think, is mostly over it. He's definitely a forward thinker and I'm well the opposite. I just want to be 15 again for a day. I want to feel the youth but retain the wisdom. I want to be young, wild, and free again. Just for a little bit. Then I promise I'll go back to old, calm, contained Elizabeth.
In the mean time I thought I'd give an ode to my old post stylings:
Today was cool.
Mimi kept the baby so John, Joshua, Roland, and I did errands. (I'm so unbelievably interesting these days). We had a super successful 4th of July party yesterday! Yay! Tomorrow we WERE planning on going to the beach, but we've got some crappy beach weather so nvm. Cuddle up and do house stuffs it is! A little under two weeks until we go to Virginia!! I'm so excited to see my Grandmother (who is turning the very distinguished age of 90). I'm excited for family. And for mountains! John is too. We're definitely mountain people. In the mean time, we're just over here surviving the kids being on Summer break. I'm doing so-so at being a SAHM while they're on break and trying desperately to not let Roland consume massive amounts of screen time. Lord give me strength. Theodore is doing great! Potentially, starting potty training. He's definitely getting the concept (one poop and two pee pees so far!!) He's in swim lessons with Suzi (just like J&R did) and is doing great! John and I are re-starting and finishing Financial Peace University to GET. OUR. FINANCES. ON. POINT! I'm VERRRRRRY happy about this. We watched the intro and did a rough written budget after listing out all of our debts. I'll put it here. It's a little over $58,000. Not terrible, not great. We'll get there. I feel his on-boardness this time around. And I feel my relaxation going in to it. God has been moving in my life these last few months. I was always so quick to deny my need for anything and quick to point out what others needed, but He's really shown me my shortcomings and allowed me grace to be able to accept them and therefore challenge them with His. I'm grateful for that.
Ok, well that got a little adult. But I guess that's just the way it goes when you're leaving your 20s. T.T
-E