The end
I think it's time to admit, to myself and to you guys, that I'm not going to write in here anymore. This is my last post. I'm keeping the journal though, just in case, and to read the friends-only posts...
Life has gotten a little too hectic right now, and I think I'd rather keep in touch through email.
Through all these years being friends with you guys has been very important to me, it got me through a lot, and at one point, seven years ago, I almost felt like you were the only friends I had. I've always been very shy, and had problems with my family, but most of all, I had problems accepting myself, and even with being Brazillian, so this online world was my escape. Here I could be anyone I wanted, speeking in English, and talking to new strange people, I could be anyone I wanted, so I chose to be Cathy. I never told you lies or anything, on the contrary, here was where I was truly myself, because I felt I couldn't on the real world.
Now a lot has changed. I'll be 20 years old this wednesday. I'm older, I grew up, I moved to São Paulo, I started college, and saw that I didn't want that at all, so I started a new one, one I love. Fashion school is awesome, I love it, love going to class, love doing my school work, it makes me happy. I also joined a theatre group, and have done 2 plays so far, and that is also something that I love, moves me, makes my heart beat in a new rithym, makes me feel complete. In the last year I've fallen in love, and lived that great love, and then I lived the end of it, lived through it, and it made me stronger. I moved to a new appartment, and now have three wonderful roommates that I love, the greatest friends I could ever have.
Basically, my life is in a great place. I'm in a great place. And I'm in therapy too, which has given me a lot of strength.
I still have problems with my mother, I think that's never gonna change, but we're working on it, and we've made a lot of improvement. I'm more mature now and I can be honest with her, without crying, without hurting.
I want to thank you all. Thank you Mette, Seran, Laura and Ben. Thank you for being my friends, for all the talks, all the chats on msn, all the laughs, all the support. Thank you for sharing your lifes with me, and letting me share mine with you. Thank you for the letters and Christmas cards, they always made me very happy! Thank you for letting me be a part of this online family that we built for ourselves, this whanau, specially in a time when I really needed to be a part of something.
Now I'm more down to earth, I still have a journal, which I write in Portuguese. In case anyone has been learning portuguese, this is the link http://dontwalktheline.livejournal.com
I intend to keep in touch and send emails, so please leave a comment with the email address that you want me to write to.
Love you all to bits,
Cathy, or Carina, or Cacá, as my closest friends call me.
Life has gotten a little too hectic right now, and I think I'd rather keep in touch through email.
Through all these years being friends with you guys has been very important to me, it got me through a lot, and at one point, seven years ago, I almost felt like you were the only friends I had. I've always been very shy, and had problems with my family, but most of all, I had problems accepting myself, and even with being Brazillian, so this online world was my escape. Here I could be anyone I wanted, speeking in English, and talking to new strange people, I could be anyone I wanted, so I chose to be Cathy. I never told you lies or anything, on the contrary, here was where I was truly myself, because I felt I couldn't on the real world.
Now a lot has changed. I'll be 20 years old this wednesday. I'm older, I grew up, I moved to São Paulo, I started college, and saw that I didn't want that at all, so I started a new one, one I love. Fashion school is awesome, I love it, love going to class, love doing my school work, it makes me happy. I also joined a theatre group, and have done 2 plays so far, and that is also something that I love, moves me, makes my heart beat in a new rithym, makes me feel complete. In the last year I've fallen in love, and lived that great love, and then I lived the end of it, lived through it, and it made me stronger. I moved to a new appartment, and now have three wonderful roommates that I love, the greatest friends I could ever have.
Basically, my life is in a great place. I'm in a great place. And I'm in therapy too, which has given me a lot of strength.
I still have problems with my mother, I think that's never gonna change, but we're working on it, and we've made a lot of improvement. I'm more mature now and I can be honest with her, without crying, without hurting.
I want to thank you all. Thank you Mette, Seran, Laura and Ben. Thank you for being my friends, for all the talks, all the chats on msn, all the laughs, all the support. Thank you for sharing your lifes with me, and letting me share mine with you. Thank you for the letters and Christmas cards, they always made me very happy! Thank you for letting me be a part of this online family that we built for ourselves, this whanau, specially in a time when I really needed to be a part of something.
Now I'm more down to earth, I still have a journal, which I write in Portuguese. In case anyone has been learning portuguese, this is the link http://dontwalktheline.livejournal.com
I intend to keep in touch and send emails, so please leave a comment with the email address that you want me to write to.
Love you all to bits,
Cathy, or Carina, or Cacá, as my closest friends call me.