I never realized I cna become what I hate.
I feel so empty right now. I think I am giving up. I don't have the strength to keep trying. Ten years from now I can't hate myself for not trying. I've tried so much, so hard, and now, two years later, things remain the same. When you love someone so much I think the best you can do is respect their wishes. I don't want to ruin her life anymore than I already have. She's right, I did do this to myself. And there won't be any time in my life where I will be able to forgive myself.