I'm frustrated by your apathy
So the last time I got fucked on pills I swore I wouldn't do it again. The night before last I was so miserable. I really just wanted to go to sleep so I wouldn't have to cry anymore. well...I hadn't been taking my sleeping pills [not really sleeping pills...anti-depressants to help me sleep] so the eight that I hadn't taken I took all at once. I got really dizzy, my heart was pounding, my vision was blurry and I was really weak. I'm not ready to die so I threw up what I could. I'm not even sure they came up. I went and told my mom I took 6 and she laid in her bed with me. I slept til 3:30 yesterday then went into work. My eyes were stil halfway shut. litterally. I was really groggy and everyone was worried. I guess I looked really shitty because one of the servers [Eric] went next door to Kash N Karry and bought me a cake. He wanted to see me smile. It didn't work too well but the thought of it was nice. I love most of the people I work with.
I started writing Nicole...I used my journal to do it because that's where it's easiest to write. well...I went to take a quick shower and when I came back my brother signed out of it...I'm pissed. I guess I'll start over.
I started writing Nicole...I used my journal to do it because that's where it's easiest to write. well...I went to take a quick shower and when I came back my brother signed out of it...I'm pissed. I guess I'll start over.