Don't say you love me
Sorry I had a ton of feelings inside and I didn't know where to put them. I didn't want to post anything sad here, but I didn't know where else to post.
Sorry to add more sad.
Did I do something wrong?
Did I not do enough?
I'm your best friend,
or so you said.
But then why was I the last to know,
Why did I find out from someone else?
Did you think that I would get mad?
You pulled me from my shell,
You said you could tell me anything.
But
You lied, like everyone else.
You knew how fragile I was.
you knew how long it took me to trust,
I told you how I was always betrayed.
Yet you did the same.
Why did I try this time
Why did I bother?
But here I am crying. Again. The only difference this time is the person.
I told you I didn't like it.
I said that I would support you.
And I do.......did.....I want to,
But it feels so hard now.
Every time your bored, you call.
Every time he upsets you, you call.
When he's not there, you call.
And I would reply as if you wanted to talk to me.
But I was just someone to make you feel better,
Until he came back.
It gets harder every time, I say less and less.
I'm going back to who I was.
I keep everyone at arm's length again.
I hide behind my music and laptop,
Everyone we use to hang out with, was really everyone that you hung out with
I was just there,
Like always.
I can't talk to you about it,
You just cry to others about how I freaked out.
Avoid and change questions.
Didn't I have a right too?
I didn't know for three months.
You say it doesn't count
But it does
You don't get technicalities
I told you I wasn't mad, and I think that's true.
But I am hurt, more then you know.
I can't believe I'm crying again.
Now as you reach for me,
I'm not sure I want to reply.
I don't know if it's the truth.
Besides you have him, why do you need me?
Sorry to add more sad.
Did I do something wrong?
Did I not do enough?
I'm your best friend,
or so you said.
But then why was I the last to know,
Why did I find out from someone else?
Did you think that I would get mad?
You pulled me from my shell,
You said you could tell me anything.
But
You lied, like everyone else.
You knew how fragile I was.
you knew how long it took me to trust,
I told you how I was always betrayed.
Yet you did the same.
Why did I try this time
Why did I bother?
But here I am crying. Again. The only difference this time is the person.
I told you I didn't like it.
I said that I would support you.
And I do.......did.....I want to,
But it feels so hard now.
Every time your bored, you call.
Every time he upsets you, you call.
When he's not there, you call.
And I would reply as if you wanted to talk to me.
But I was just someone to make you feel better,
Until he came back.
It gets harder every time, I say less and less.
I'm going back to who I was.
I keep everyone at arm's length again.
I hide behind my music and laptop,
Everyone we use to hang out with, was really everyone that you hung out with
I was just there,
Like always.
I can't talk to you about it,
You just cry to others about how I freaked out.
Avoid and change questions.
Didn't I have a right too?
I didn't know for three months.
You say it doesn't count
But it does
You don't get technicalities
I told you I wasn't mad, and I think that's true.
But I am hurt, more then you know.
I can't believe I'm crying again.
Now as you reach for me,
I'm not sure I want to reply.
I don't know if it's the truth.
Besides you have him, why do you need me?