it's just one of them days that a girl goes through .
` it's amazing how somebody can hurt you so bad and yet you still have feelings for them while hating them so much at the same exact time ` - me
yes. i made that up. and i'm sure you understand it. if not then you need to read some of my E N T R i E S. otherwise stay lost you fxcker. you obviously don't care so neither do i. =) so yeah. as of right now i could fxcking care less who reads this. meaning i'm gonna share my feelings and if the W H O L E world reads this oh fxcking well. so be it. okay yeah you all know i liked steve and all this bullshit happened. okay whatever. but the thing that bothers me now is this: even tho he was the biggest asshole to me and hurt me so incredibly bad and could care less that he did. and i know he thinks he didn't do anything wrong. yeah fxck you cuz you did. yet i for some odd ass reason still have some kinda feelings for him. i hate the fact that i do. but i'm the kind of girl that when i like a guy and i still see them my feelings don't just go away. even if the guy is the B i G G E S T asshole to me. i don't know why either. i mean i hate this kid so much that when i see him i just want to scream at him. but then again i don't even want to talk to him. it's so weird. i hate liking guys. i always end up getting hurt and stay having feelings for them. it's actually not even fair. it's funny cuz when i do like a guy i can flirt with 10 million other guys and not give a damn. i mean even so if i didn't like the guy or the something like that. like right now i have no problem flirting with guys. even with this situation. it just bothers me that i can flirt with all these guys and still have these stupid feelings for this asshole. why can't i catch feelings for some other nigguh? i mean not saying there's not some little tiny feelings for some guys. i mean yeah there is. but not enough to make me want them. there's my homeboy he's cute. i'd fxck him. and most likely will. but i don't want to go out with him. and of course the asshole had to rub it in my face to fxck him. ( my homeboy ) why the fxck would he bring that shit up? to make me feel dirty? well if that is the case. it didn't work. man whatever i'm done writing this shit. all it's gonna do is piss me off. i fxcking hate my life. i hate this world i live in. i hate alot of the people around me. and i hate so much more. yeah hate is a word that shouldn't be used so freely but i've come to a point where i don't give a fxck. so if you wanna say some shit about me hating shit or people. then get the fxck outta here cuz i don't fxcking care. well i'mna gone. byebye. kisses. <3