Utaban (screencaps) & If I see you in my dreams 6
Ya~ today's guest before KAT-TUN hit his head against the lamp *headdesks* at least it made me LMAO XD
Yeah, I'm biased ^^;
Don't U Ever Stop...Jin and his pretty hair :D
Ok, that's it...hope it's available for download soon, even though it wasn't as funny as, let's say Heyx3 :/
Title: If I see you in my dreams ch5
Pairings: Akame
Rating: PG-13
Genre: romance, angst , fantasy
Summary: What would you do when you discover that the person you always thought granted by your side forever is going to die soon?
What would you do to change the future? Search desperately for an way to make things differently or choose to forget?
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5
I wake up alone and naked in my bed, the spot beside me cold and empty, how I know it wasn’t during most part of the night.
I sit up and search for my clothes, scattered on the floor, marking a path from the living room to my bedroom, the imprints of last night’s happenings.
Last night…I don’t want to think about last night. Why did I do such thing? More importantly, why did I let Jin do such thing? It’s true, we had drunk a lot, but I was still conscious of what I was doing, yet, I did nothing to stop it.
Why now of all times? In the process of trying to keep Jin from his fate, I ended up not doing anything that could help him, and only got closer to him, enhancing the pain that will fall upon me when he’s gone.
Jin…stay with me. Don’t leave me alone to suffer when you’re gone. Don’t go without properly saying goodbye.
One month left to make Jin happy. One month left to prevent Jin from being happy just until June.
Tell me, what can a common person like me do? What exactly am I supposed to do but watch things take their turn? The angel was right. It’s impossible to change the future. Basically, because I don’t know what should I change so your own destiny does.
I jump out of bed with a determined attitude. I won’t let it happen, no matter what.
For now, I have to go to work.
***
I made sure to come just on time so everyone was there already, so I didn’t risk the chance of being alone with Jin on the changing room.
He seems to have realized my intentions, because from across the room, he sends me a meaningful glance from over the magazine he’s holding, before focusing back on it.
Does he regret what we did? And do I?
It was a sudden, rash and an irresponsible act from both of us, so why did we do it? How come Jin came to me like that, seeming so caring and…in love?
“What are you doing, spacing off?” I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn’t see Jin walking in my direction until he’s in front of me, waving a hand in front of my face and sporting a worried look.
I feel the heat rising to my cheeks when he steps too close, face just inches away from mine, but I try not to look affected, pushing him away “I’m fine.”
Ignoring Jin proves to be a really difficult task. He seems to insist on being with me in every break we get, even though he doesn’t say a thing, nor touches the matter about last night.
But for some reason, every time I move away without speaking, he flashes me a forlorn look.
It looks like he wants to say something, but he doesn’t dare to. I don’t dare to ask either and my lips are sealed the whole time.
What exactly does Jin want? I’ve asked myself this question hundreds of times, but I guess I’ll never have a proper answer unless I ask him.
When work is over, the only thing I do is run away instead. I don’t turn back to see Jin’s hurt expression.
***
Once I’m finally home, behind a door I know Jin won’t follow me to, I feel a sudden relief.
I don’t know how much more of this situation I can take or how longer can I keep a straight face and avoid Jin because of what happened.
The best thing to do is find a way not to make things awkward between us, which I have to say, I’m not succeeding in.
A shower will surely make me relax, so I discard my bag on the couch, throwing it carelessly and not once looking at where it has landed; peel off my clothes, item by item, scattering the floor to the bathroom until I get to my destiny, closing the door behind me.
I turn the water on and sneak under the warm spray, letting it consume my body and possibly my soul.
I just want to forget everything that’s happened, everything that’s about to happen, so I close my eyes for a minute to shut myself from this world and all the worries it carries.
Just for a minute…
When I open my eyes again, I’m no longer in the world I know, but in other place I’ve come to know as well, in the past months.
I’ve come to the future again.
I’m wondering the why of my trip here this time, when something catches my attention. I leap forward and I’m in front of the calendar in a second. Why? Why are there crosses in the month of May now? Why’s Jin’s death anticipated?
I feel my legs grow weak under me and I fall to my knees. It sips off my strength when I tried so hard to help and this is the result.
Was everything I did up until now a futile effort? Did what we do together only make it worse for Jin? Encouraging his death to come sooner? All my actions upon Jin had the opposite effect…what I did to try make him survive, only pushed him closer to his fateful death.
Even though he says I can’t change the future to save Jin, on the other hand, the future changed itself and death is coming for him before the predicted.
I can’t even bring myself to cry anymore…I feel so pathetic.
Then I notice something else: over the desk, next to some books, there’s a fancy red frame where a frozen moment in time lies in between, forever - two smiling faces - Jin and I, happy like never, not even looking at the camera but at each other. I don’t remember taking such photo.
Right next to it, there’s a paper crane which I pick up “1000 paper cranes equals to one wish.”
A single tear falls down my cheek, then another, followed by other two, and then, I can’t stop them from wetting the crane, can’t even bring myself to move an inch.
Later, as my vision becomes less blurred, I realize that my tears aren’t the only thing soaking the paper anymore, but the water coming out from the shower head as well. I’m back in my time.
“Kame! Kame!”
When I lift my heave head, Jin’s right in front of me, pulling me up and out of the stall “Are you ok?” he wraps me in a fluffy towel and rubs it against my body in an attempt of making me warm, but the truth is I’m frozen, outside and inside, and the latter no one can change, no matter how warm the outside is.
“Why?” I feel a sob escape me and I cling to Jin’s shirt, burying my head on the crook of his neck “Why didn’t I choose to forget?”
Wouldn’t it have been easier?
As much as it hurts to admit, the angel was right all along - I can’t change what is bound to happen.
It takes me a while to calm down, but once I do, I invite Jin to go out on a walk with me. At least that, I have to make clear. And it doesn’t matter what it takes.
***
I walk ahead of Jin, steps perfectly measured and careful. I do not risk looking over my shoulder back at him with fear of losing the courage I built up, once my eyes meet his.
In the end, he’s the one that initiates the conversation.
“About last night…”
No…don’t.
“Forget about it. We were drunk.”
Why is it that I feel so afraid of hearing you say anything right now? Isn’t it much easier to deny myself and shield my heart from the pain? It’ll only take a couple of words from you to dig up all the things I’m afraid of, and reduce my heart to a bunch of shattered pieces.
“Kame…”
I don’t want to hear it.
“It didn’t mean anything, right?” I never stop walking. I don’t turn around to face him either.
“Listen, Kame…”
No!
“It’s ok. Let’s put it behind our back and move on.”
It’s the best I can do.
“Kame…”
Now it’s the time. It’s now or never, else, I will never know.
“Listen, Jin…” I start, my nails carving in my sweaty palms, and I take a deep breath before turning around “What is it that you want?”
I catch sight of Jin just as he falls down to his knees, his eyes closed.
The moment seems to stretch forever, to repeat itself in front of me time after time.
I jump forward just in time to catch him before he hits the ground, unconscious.
“Jin!” I shake him in a futile effort to get him to open his eyes.
“Jin, wake up!” the tears start flowing in my eyes.
No…don’t leave me now, you idiot! You still have almost a week to live!
“JIIIIN!”
A/N: Ok...this was kind of depressing writing, and maybe not because of the reasons you're thinking XD
kano_stina, where are you btw? ;___;
And next is the last chapter...like I said, don't expect much.
Gtg to school no >__< Itteki~
Edit: I found DUES shop photos and I don't think anyone has showed them yet, or again, maybe it's just me because I skip through my f-list really fast XD
*___________________*
credit to baidu
*paws at helplessly* ;___; I WANT THEM~~
Btw, Haruka-chan was so damn cuuuuute~
*
Yeah, I'm biased ^^;
Don't U Ever Stop...Jin and his pretty hair :D
Ok, that's it...hope it's available for download soon, even though it wasn't as funny as, let's say Heyx3 :/
Title: If I see you in my dreams ch5
Pairings: Akame
Rating: PG-13
Genre: romance, angst , fantasy
Summary: What would you do when you discover that the person you always thought granted by your side forever is going to die soon?
What would you do to change the future? Search desperately for an way to make things differently or choose to forget?
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5
I wake up alone and naked in my bed, the spot beside me cold and empty, how I know it wasn’t during most part of the night.
I sit up and search for my clothes, scattered on the floor, marking a path from the living room to my bedroom, the imprints of last night’s happenings.
Last night…I don’t want to think about last night. Why did I do such thing? More importantly, why did I let Jin do such thing? It’s true, we had drunk a lot, but I was still conscious of what I was doing, yet, I did nothing to stop it.
Why now of all times? In the process of trying to keep Jin from his fate, I ended up not doing anything that could help him, and only got closer to him, enhancing the pain that will fall upon me when he’s gone.
Jin…stay with me. Don’t leave me alone to suffer when you’re gone. Don’t go without properly saying goodbye.
One month left to make Jin happy. One month left to prevent Jin from being happy just until June.
Tell me, what can a common person like me do? What exactly am I supposed to do but watch things take their turn? The angel was right. It’s impossible to change the future. Basically, because I don’t know what should I change so your own destiny does.
I jump out of bed with a determined attitude. I won’t let it happen, no matter what.
For now, I have to go to work.
***
I made sure to come just on time so everyone was there already, so I didn’t risk the chance of being alone with Jin on the changing room.
He seems to have realized my intentions, because from across the room, he sends me a meaningful glance from over the magazine he’s holding, before focusing back on it.
Does he regret what we did? And do I?
It was a sudden, rash and an irresponsible act from both of us, so why did we do it? How come Jin came to me like that, seeming so caring and…in love?
“What are you doing, spacing off?” I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn’t see Jin walking in my direction until he’s in front of me, waving a hand in front of my face and sporting a worried look.
I feel the heat rising to my cheeks when he steps too close, face just inches away from mine, but I try not to look affected, pushing him away “I’m fine.”
Ignoring Jin proves to be a really difficult task. He seems to insist on being with me in every break we get, even though he doesn’t say a thing, nor touches the matter about last night.
But for some reason, every time I move away without speaking, he flashes me a forlorn look.
It looks like he wants to say something, but he doesn’t dare to. I don’t dare to ask either and my lips are sealed the whole time.
What exactly does Jin want? I’ve asked myself this question hundreds of times, but I guess I’ll never have a proper answer unless I ask him.
When work is over, the only thing I do is run away instead. I don’t turn back to see Jin’s hurt expression.
***
Once I’m finally home, behind a door I know Jin won’t follow me to, I feel a sudden relief.
I don’t know how much more of this situation I can take or how longer can I keep a straight face and avoid Jin because of what happened.
The best thing to do is find a way not to make things awkward between us, which I have to say, I’m not succeeding in.
A shower will surely make me relax, so I discard my bag on the couch, throwing it carelessly and not once looking at where it has landed; peel off my clothes, item by item, scattering the floor to the bathroom until I get to my destiny, closing the door behind me.
I turn the water on and sneak under the warm spray, letting it consume my body and possibly my soul.
I just want to forget everything that’s happened, everything that’s about to happen, so I close my eyes for a minute to shut myself from this world and all the worries it carries.
Just for a minute…
When I open my eyes again, I’m no longer in the world I know, but in other place I’ve come to know as well, in the past months.
I’ve come to the future again.
I’m wondering the why of my trip here this time, when something catches my attention. I leap forward and I’m in front of the calendar in a second. Why? Why are there crosses in the month of May now? Why’s Jin’s death anticipated?
I feel my legs grow weak under me and I fall to my knees. It sips off my strength when I tried so hard to help and this is the result.
Was everything I did up until now a futile effort? Did what we do together only make it worse for Jin? Encouraging his death to come sooner? All my actions upon Jin had the opposite effect…what I did to try make him survive, only pushed him closer to his fateful death.
Even though he says I can’t change the future to save Jin, on the other hand, the future changed itself and death is coming for him before the predicted.
I can’t even bring myself to cry anymore…I feel so pathetic.
Then I notice something else: over the desk, next to some books, there’s a fancy red frame where a frozen moment in time lies in between, forever - two smiling faces - Jin and I, happy like never, not even looking at the camera but at each other. I don’t remember taking such photo.
Right next to it, there’s a paper crane which I pick up “1000 paper cranes equals to one wish.”
A single tear falls down my cheek, then another, followed by other two, and then, I can’t stop them from wetting the crane, can’t even bring myself to move an inch.
Later, as my vision becomes less blurred, I realize that my tears aren’t the only thing soaking the paper anymore, but the water coming out from the shower head as well. I’m back in my time.
“Kame! Kame!”
When I lift my heave head, Jin’s right in front of me, pulling me up and out of the stall “Are you ok?” he wraps me in a fluffy towel and rubs it against my body in an attempt of making me warm, but the truth is I’m frozen, outside and inside, and the latter no one can change, no matter how warm the outside is.
“Why?” I feel a sob escape me and I cling to Jin’s shirt, burying my head on the crook of his neck “Why didn’t I choose to forget?”
Wouldn’t it have been easier?
As much as it hurts to admit, the angel was right all along - I can’t change what is bound to happen.
It takes me a while to calm down, but once I do, I invite Jin to go out on a walk with me. At least that, I have to make clear. And it doesn’t matter what it takes.
***
I walk ahead of Jin, steps perfectly measured and careful. I do not risk looking over my shoulder back at him with fear of losing the courage I built up, once my eyes meet his.
In the end, he’s the one that initiates the conversation.
“About last night…”
No…don’t.
“Forget about it. We were drunk.”
Why is it that I feel so afraid of hearing you say anything right now? Isn’t it much easier to deny myself and shield my heart from the pain? It’ll only take a couple of words from you to dig up all the things I’m afraid of, and reduce my heart to a bunch of shattered pieces.
“Kame…”
I don’t want to hear it.
“It didn’t mean anything, right?” I never stop walking. I don’t turn around to face him either.
“Listen, Kame…”
No!
“It’s ok. Let’s put it behind our back and move on.”
It’s the best I can do.
“Kame…”
Now it’s the time. It’s now or never, else, I will never know.
“Listen, Jin…” I start, my nails carving in my sweaty palms, and I take a deep breath before turning around “What is it that you want?”
I catch sight of Jin just as he falls down to his knees, his eyes closed.
The moment seems to stretch forever, to repeat itself in front of me time after time.
I jump forward just in time to catch him before he hits the ground, unconscious.
“Jin!” I shake him in a futile effort to get him to open his eyes.
“Jin, wake up!” the tears start flowing in my eyes.
No…don’t leave me now, you idiot! You still have almost a week to live!
“JIIIIN!”
A/N: Ok...this was kind of depressing writing, and maybe not because of the reasons you're thinking XD
kano_stina, where are you btw? ;___;
And next is the last chapter...like I said, don't expect much.
Gtg to school no >__< Itteki~
Edit: I found DUES shop photos and I don't think anyone has showed them yet, or again, maybe it's just me because I skip through my f-list really fast XD
*___________________*
credit to baidu
*paws at helplessly* ;___; I WANT THEM~~
Btw, Haruka-chan was so damn cuuuuute~
*