6 things I wish I'd never done.
Day One:Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Day 5.
1. Downplayed my bullying. I think that's a defence machanism you take up after an X amount of time, brought on both by the idea that maybe you just 'deserve' it or you might just be all those things they're saying about you and that there hasn't been anything that made it better, sometimes telling someone has only made it worse (or they didn't listen) and you just stop thinking there's anything to be done. I think, that although I might have been even worse off today without those defences, maybe, just maybe, I would've gotten through with someone and got some help. Still unsure about that last part, but it's a wish right?
2. Let things get to this point with my stepdad.
3. Ended my HD-Smoochfest like I did. And my short story for that matter.
4. Started this meme because now I have no ideas for this day?
5. Being so fucking emotionless/detatched in grade school during my last 1-2 years. I mean, maybe, just maybe it would've changed my view on my classmates had I not been completely closed or really, detached from it all. I had this persona on, like I was above it all, that way, whatever happened, didn't effect me.
6. I know this sounds weird, but not crying enough AT school in grade school. I think, based on the response I got the FEW times I did cry, that maybe they often didn't realise how much they were hurting me. Crying would've somehow made them realise that.
This ended up being on one end about my bullying an on the other kind of weird/strange/random. Well, that's ... me. Also, while I might have written this down here, it doesn't really plague me, nor do I think about all these what-ifs this much. I don't like what-ifs, because you can't change the past, you can only change how you take on the future.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Day 5.
1. Downplayed my bullying. I think that's a defence machanism you take up after an X amount of time, brought on both by the idea that maybe you just 'deserve' it or you might just be all those things they're saying about you and that there hasn't been anything that made it better, sometimes telling someone has only made it worse (or they didn't listen) and you just stop thinking there's anything to be done. I think, that although I might have been even worse off today without those defences, maybe, just maybe, I would've gotten through with someone and got some help. Still unsure about that last part, but it's a wish right?
2. Let things get to this point with my stepdad.
3. Ended my HD-Smoochfest like I did. And my short story for that matter.
4. Started this meme because now I have no ideas for this day?
5. Being so fucking emotionless/detatched in grade school during my last 1-2 years. I mean, maybe, just maybe it would've changed my view on my classmates had I not been completely closed or really, detached from it all. I had this persona on, like I was above it all, that way, whatever happened, didn't effect me.
6. I know this sounds weird, but not crying enough AT school in grade school. I think, based on the response I got the FEW times I did cry, that maybe they often didn't realise how much they were hurting me. Crying would've somehow made them realise that.
This ended up being on one end about my bullying an on the other kind of weird/strange/random. Well, that's ... me. Also, while I might have written this down here, it doesn't really plague me, nor do I think about all these what-ifs this much. I don't like what-ifs, because you can't change the past, you can only change how you take on the future.