I'm losing everything important to me, in life.
So I finally decided to work up the nerve, because deep inside it's truly been bothering me but i chose to ignore it all this time, and now look here i am, writing. I finally reply, and all i got was a mere,
i heard about it,
and then i apologized in the worst way a person could apologize, and I'm losing everything important to me, in life. And well quite frankly it sucks more than anything. I've been on the edge back and forth of losing happiness from day to day, then going to work and gaining it back, then losing it again when i come back home, the gaining it when i go to church, the losing and gaining and the cycle keeps going. As i keep losing, pieces of me continue to shatter off and pieces of me continues to break off and I don't think i;ll regain them for a while. Theres only one thing that hasn't completly kept me from shattering and i'll say this till the day i die, its God. Only God is still keeping me this way and honestly i wish i could do all my good deeds, die and go to heaven, because this fight, i'm currently on the edge of losing it, and Theres too much hidden anger and frrustration and lies in my life for me to go to God pure, but i know he'll accept me, after i'm done with this week. Because God accepts all, and I'm just being honest here, because no one exvcept for maybe myself in 10 more years will read this, but i keep losing important things and one day eventually the only thing i might have left important to me is God and music. Hopefully i continue to care about things, like my clothes, MY HAIR, my face, and i don't let myselff completly go like half of the girls at my school shave already, but i just wanna be free of this, of these chains, and i'm begging God to free me, because once again, here i am, i've already dugg my pit hole. and i don't even know what i would say if i got a crappy apology like that, but i guess thats one more person down the road that i might have to suck it up that i've lost.
losing.
losin
losi
los
lo
GONE.
I'm just tired. here i am trying to study and i have all the distractions a person could possibly ask, for.
goodbye livejournal.,
well of course only for now
i heard about it,
and then i apologized in the worst way a person could apologize, and I'm losing everything important to me, in life. And well quite frankly it sucks more than anything. I've been on the edge back and forth of losing happiness from day to day, then going to work and gaining it back, then losing it again when i come back home, the gaining it when i go to church, the losing and gaining and the cycle keeps going. As i keep losing, pieces of me continue to shatter off and pieces of me continues to break off and I don't think i;ll regain them for a while. Theres only one thing that hasn't completly kept me from shattering and i'll say this till the day i die, its God. Only God is still keeping me this way and honestly i wish i could do all my good deeds, die and go to heaven, because this fight, i'm currently on the edge of losing it, and Theres too much hidden anger and frrustration and lies in my life for me to go to God pure, but i know he'll accept me, after i'm done with this week. Because God accepts all, and I'm just being honest here, because no one exvcept for maybe myself in 10 more years will read this, but i keep losing important things and one day eventually the only thing i might have left important to me is God and music. Hopefully i continue to care about things, like my clothes, MY HAIR, my face, and i don't let myselff completly go like half of the girls at my school shave already, but i just wanna be free of this, of these chains, and i'm begging God to free me, because once again, here i am, i've already dugg my pit hole. and i don't even know what i would say if i got a crappy apology like that, but i guess thats one more person down the road that i might have to suck it up that i've lost.
losing.
losin
losi
los
lo
GONE.
I'm just tired. here i am trying to study and i have all the distractions a person could possibly ask, for.
goodbye livejournal.,
well of course only for now