"Passenger" (OneShot Jacob POV)
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OneShot - Jacob's POV
No matter how much I wanted to stay with Bella, no matter how much I wanted to hold on to her, to kiss her and tell her that we could start over, I couldn't. I needed to walk away from her. I've waited for her for as long as I could remember, but now that she was actually here, actually in front of me and begging me to forgive her; I knew it was the right thing to do. I couldn't just give into her that easily. I didn't want her to think I was being weak.
'If you want my opinion you're being a complete idiot, not weak.' Embry chimed in while catching the tail of my self-loathing; I had phased practically the moment I was out of Bella's line of sight.
'Thanks dude, appreciate it.' I phased back to human form without another word, threw on my shorts, and started the short walk back to my house. I did not want to deal with anyone in my head right now.
I should go back and finish talking with Bella. I know she's sorry, I know she regrets everything. I couldn't really help overhearing the conversations she's been having with her friend while I'm by her house at night, so I've gotten a pretty good idea at how sorry she truly is. But… it's time to make her wait. She's made me wait four years, why is it so horrible that I make her wait a few days? If she knows anything, then she should know that I've never stopped loving her… hell, she knows that I was visiting with Charlie every day.
Granted, that was more because the house still smelled like her then me actually waiting their like some lost puppy for her to come home. I wasn't stupid enough to show up there everyday with some silly notion that she would walk through the door or something. It was more that, being there, smelling her, seeing and feeling things that reminded me so much of her, helped me not to lose my mind to grieve all together.
"So how long are you gonna make her wait?" Embry had phased back as well, and caught up with me on the beach. And damn, I was so close to the house too.
"Couldn't take the hint that I didn't feel like talking?"
"Yeah whatever. Now seriously, you saw that girl right? The one that was on your lap in a black bikini? And you just walk away? Are you insane man?" I turned to him with a scowl; he was shaking his head at me like the whole thing really did confuse him.
"What Bella's wearing, or not wearing, does not change the situation that we are in." I began walking again, this time a little faster as to get away from him as quickly as I could in a human body.
"I suggest you go to Dr. C and just have him surgically remove your balls all together, because you obviously don't need them anymore." I stopped short in my step and whipped around to face him again. I was just about to beat the living shit out of him when I caught sight of Leah from the corner of my eye.
"Boys, boys, boys. You'll never grow up will you?" She asked, coming to stand next to us in the sand.
"Leah you should be resting right now, your patrols start in a few hours." I reprimanded her. I hated being the Alpha and having to sound like such a douche all the time.
"Yeah well, I needed to talk with you about something first," she looked over to Embry, tightening her eyes at him, and added, "privately."
Embry looked between the two of us for a few seconds, then threw up his hands, "Fine, have you're little private talk, it's not like I won't see it later or something... I swear, all these years of friendship, and then I just get passed right over for some girl, and some motorcycles, and then this, with another girl no less…" His voice trailed off as he ran down the beach and out of sight.
"So, what's up?" I asked as I looked back over to Leah, who at that moment looked very worried about something. I become instantly concerned, and walked over next to her, putting my hands around her shoulders. "Leah, tell me what's going on." I demanded in an Alpha tone, I didn't intend to use.
"Wow, chill. It's nothing that serious, like life or death or anything Jacob." I took a second to calm down, and then when I visibly began to relax, she continued. "I just wanted to talk to you about all this Bella bullshit."
I rolled my eyes and turned to walk away from her, "not you too!" I shouted into the air.
"Hey, I'm not here to tell you to go running back to her, you know me better than that." Leah pulled at my shoulder to stop me, and force me to turn and face her, "Just hear me out."
"You have two minutes."
"Alright, so you know Liv has had it really rough the past few months. Especially with this crap with her phasing now - I mean, to find out after all these years that we share the same father, that our mother's, who are sister's no less, kept this secret for so long…" she shook her head, taking a moment to compose herself, and I took this as my opportunity to interrupt her.
"Why are you bringing Liv into this?"
"Because Jake, she is completely in love with you, and you know it - we all know it! She's very good at keeping that stuff to herself when she's phased, but it's obvious." She was shaking my shoulders, and was acting like a crazed maniac.
"I'm in love with Bella, that will never change. She knows that. And that, is what is completely obvious." I took a step back from her, and she let her arms drop to her sides. "Why are you freaking out like this?"
"Because she's my family, my sister, and I don't want you to hurt her." Leah was calmer now, and a single tear slid down her cheek. "You made me your second in command for a reason Jake, and that was because you need me to knock sense into you when you're being ignorant. Just ignorant to all the things that are going on around you because you're too trapped in your little Bella bubble to see them. You're a brother to me Jake, and I don't want to see you hurting anymore either."
"I don't know what you want me to say." I shrugged my shoulders, and looked out to the water. "I feel like hell that Liv will be hurt by my choices. But, I don't want to be with her. She's been able to see into my head since she first started phasing, and all that is ever in there is Bella." I slumped down into the sand, bringing my knees to my chest. A minute later Leah joined in next to me.
"I can't be sorry for the way I feel. That's how I've been able to finally understand the choices that Bella once made when she chose to be with Edward. You can't just change the way you feel because you don't want to hurt the other people involved… We know that better than anyone." I punched her lightly on her shoulder and smiled widely at her, trying to make light of the situation and conversation.
"If you're implying that we would know that better than anyone because of imprinting, then we both know imprinting is completely different then truly being in love with two people. Sam really did have a choice… And you certainly know that better than me, since I haven't had to deal with it yet. He could have fought it like you did, if he loved me enough, he could have fought it." We both looked away from each other, and nodded. She was right. I was able to fight off my imprint because of the love I had for Bella, but Sam never even tried to fight for Leah.
"Listen, I really didn't come here to fight with you. I know you love Bella, and you're just going to forgive her, and blah blah blah you'll have ten million puppies and live happily ever after, I get that. But… you really need to make sure you talk with Liv, and you really need to figure this crap out with you and Bella soon, because the more you act like an asshole around her, the more you're making Liv think she has a chance." She wagged her finger in my face, and then poked me in the chest with it.
"Yeah, I got it. I'll go and talk with Bella tonight, see where we stand, and then I'll talk with Liv." I raised my hands in front of her in a sign of submission, and that I fully understood that she wouldn't drop this until I made it all right.
"Alright, good. I'm outta here to get some sleep before patrol with Rosalie tonight; need to stay alert for all the non-danger that is around here nowadays." Leah snorted and stood, running down the beach towards her house.
I was going to talk to Bella tonight. I was going to tell her that we could start over, start fresh and new, that I was and will always be in love with her, and hope to hear the same words from back from her. Tonight, I will hold Bella Swan in my arms, we will confess our undying love for one-another and I will kiss her... And everything will finally be right in my world again.
A/N: Soooo like the little surprise?? I wasn't planning on EVER posting a JPOV for this story, but since a lot of you kept asking me, I figured I would show my love and appreciate for all you loyal readers and reviewers, and post this short little delve into the mind of our beloved Jacob Black. I hope this clears up a lot. I know some of you have been questioning Jake's motives in pushing Bella away - he just doesn't want to look like a chump! haha. Also, this chapter is super important, and I hope you all caught why - it has to do with imprinting. Go back and re-read the last chunk if you missed it. I wasn't planning on revealing that Jacob had imprinted on some random girl for awhile, at least like 5 more chapters lol, and I'll probably not touch on it again for awhile, BUT I just HAD to throw that evil little bit of plot twist in there now to keep you guys on your toes!! Mwahaha ;) A full proper chapter 8 is still on the table for Tuesday!! Thanks in advance, as always, for all the reviews and feedback! XoXo - Vanessa