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ok, so i haven't written on of these for a while...but i'm going to write one now.
i stink.
i stink like poop.
i stink stink stink.
slit the wrists, throw up all over the place, colapse on the floor in convultions.
bleh
i'm not going to school right now, i'm NEVER getting married, this -great- job i thought i had is gonna fall through
yeap, that's pretty much it.
oh ya forgot to mention - i'm poor as dirt and fat as lard.
I WANT TO DO SOMETHING WITH MY LIFE BUT I'M TRYING TO TRUST GOD AND WAIT ON HIM TO LEAD, BUT IT SEEMS LIKE HE'S NOT DOING ANYTHING AND I'M STARTING TO GET WORRIED THAT THIS IS IT - FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!! BUT I HAVE SO MANY DREAMS, AND SO MANY TALENTS, AND SO MANY PASSIONS, I'M BURSTING AT THE SEAMS TO JUST DO SOMETHING. WHY AM I WAITING? WHAT AM I WAITING FOR? I CAN'T SEE AROUND THE CORNER...AND FOR A WHILE I WAS SO HOPEFUL THAT THERE WOULD BE SOMETHING AMAZING AROUND THE CORNER, IF I WOULD JUST BE PATIENT TO WAIT FOR IT, BUT NOW I'M STARTING TO LOSE FAITH. IS THERE ANYTHING AROUND THE CORNER? OR IS IT JUST A DEAD END?
i keep saying no to things, because i'm trusting that by saying no to that, i'm saying yes to something better...but what if there is nothing better? saying no is so hard...even harder when i begin to lose faith in God's future for me.
No, no. He HAS to have a future for me. God doesn't lie. God doesn't lie. God doesn't lie. Following His will is ALWAYS best. trust that Vanessa, trust it!!! yes, the day seems cold and dark and hopeless. Yes, in your eyes things just look crappy, but ask God to give you eyes of faith!!
Lord, i need faith! i need to trust that you DO have something better for me, something better than what this world offers. help me to trust you. Help me to be fulfilled in serving quietly in the background. So what if it doesn't fulfill my passion - so what if i'm not using all my TALENTS. You gave me those tallents, and you are the one who will, in the proper time, allow me to use them. Yes, Lord, I trust you. i trust you. i trust you. help my unbelief.
Lift my eyes off of my circumstances and on the joy set before me.
I miss Joseph
i stink.
i stink like poop.
i stink stink stink.
slit the wrists, throw up all over the place, colapse on the floor in convultions.
bleh
i'm not going to school right now, i'm NEVER getting married, this -great- job i thought i had is gonna fall through
yeap, that's pretty much it.
oh ya forgot to mention - i'm poor as dirt and fat as lard.
I WANT TO DO SOMETHING WITH MY LIFE BUT I'M TRYING TO TRUST GOD AND WAIT ON HIM TO LEAD, BUT IT SEEMS LIKE HE'S NOT DOING ANYTHING AND I'M STARTING TO GET WORRIED THAT THIS IS IT - FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!! BUT I HAVE SO MANY DREAMS, AND SO MANY TALENTS, AND SO MANY PASSIONS, I'M BURSTING AT THE SEAMS TO JUST DO SOMETHING. WHY AM I WAITING? WHAT AM I WAITING FOR? I CAN'T SEE AROUND THE CORNER...AND FOR A WHILE I WAS SO HOPEFUL THAT THERE WOULD BE SOMETHING AMAZING AROUND THE CORNER, IF I WOULD JUST BE PATIENT TO WAIT FOR IT, BUT NOW I'M STARTING TO LOSE FAITH. IS THERE ANYTHING AROUND THE CORNER? OR IS IT JUST A DEAD END?
i keep saying no to things, because i'm trusting that by saying no to that, i'm saying yes to something better...but what if there is nothing better? saying no is so hard...even harder when i begin to lose faith in God's future for me.
No, no. He HAS to have a future for me. God doesn't lie. God doesn't lie. God doesn't lie. Following His will is ALWAYS best. trust that Vanessa, trust it!!! yes, the day seems cold and dark and hopeless. Yes, in your eyes things just look crappy, but ask God to give you eyes of faith!!
Lord, i need faith! i need to trust that you DO have something better for me, something better than what this world offers. help me to trust you. Help me to be fulfilled in serving quietly in the background. So what if it doesn't fulfill my passion - so what if i'm not using all my TALENTS. You gave me those tallents, and you are the one who will, in the proper time, allow me to use them. Yes, Lord, I trust you. i trust you. i trust you. help my unbelief.
Lift my eyes off of my circumstances and on the joy set before me.
I miss Joseph