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I think a lot about people and how they claim that they were in-love with everyone of their past partners. It’s very hard for me to understand that concept. Me personally only feel I’ve been in love, true love, or what i think is true love once maybe even push a twice before. For me the simple fact of the pain you feel when the love is gone is too much to want to feel this o even give every person i date the chance to get to me like this. That helplessness, that agony, that suffering, that pain you feel from within and nothing can and no one can take it away except for that one person who is not with you anymore, maybe never really was. How can someone let this happen to him or her endlessly from relationship to relationship? There are some people once you start to date them that it's pretty obvious that it's not going to work out, that they are going to end up hurting you. Why give them the right to rip your heat to pieces. Love is a wonderful powerful emotion. It makes you fly, your weightless, but then again when it's also the thing that shreds you apart. They say you learn from every relationship, that to take what you learned in the last and make it better in the next. If what you are trying to make better is this painful slow death of emotions that are we learning to not love? It's also said we only truly love once. From there on it's never the same, if this is so, then are we really learning not love. As time passes, as we get older do we learn to not hurt out hearts anymore? I guess i should only speak for my self. There is a lead shell, with steal bars and chains around my heart. I want to love again, I guess even this pain that I fear is what makes me feel real. Makes me feel human and that I’m really here.