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I used to have this image of high school in my head, when my oldest sister went there and I was in elementry school. I met all her friends and I just thought about how fantastic and glamarous high school was, and how cool everyone I met from there was, and how much I couldn't wait to go.
And now I see pictures of high school kids in the newspapers and stuff and all I can think about is how phony they are, and how phony everyone is, and how much I feel kind of betrayed because I had this really big false image of high school and now I'm there and it's not what it used to be.
Sometimes, I guess, anticipation is the best part, and I guess that's true in the case of high school. I was expecting something much more, and I'm so dissapointed. This isn't what I expected, or what I wanted at all. I used to think it would be so fun...
I hope it's not always like this. i'm looking foreword to college, I hope I'm not dissapointed. And to getting a job, I hope I'm not dissapointed.
I especially hope that I'm not dissapointing anyone. I don't want to be the dissapointment. I would rather be dissapointed my whole life than dissapoint some one else, especially some one I love.
I wish I knew some one though, that was always there and I could always trust, and that was never fake. I wish there was some one like that, and I could tell anything. Wisssshful thinking. High school sucks.
And now I see pictures of high school kids in the newspapers and stuff and all I can think about is how phony they are, and how phony everyone is, and how much I feel kind of betrayed because I had this really big false image of high school and now I'm there and it's not what it used to be.
Sometimes, I guess, anticipation is the best part, and I guess that's true in the case of high school. I was expecting something much more, and I'm so dissapointed. This isn't what I expected, or what I wanted at all. I used to think it would be so fun...
I hope it's not always like this. i'm looking foreword to college, I hope I'm not dissapointed. And to getting a job, I hope I'm not dissapointed.
I especially hope that I'm not dissapointing anyone. I don't want to be the dissapointment. I would rather be dissapointed my whole life than dissapoint some one else, especially some one I love.
I wish I knew some one though, that was always there and I could always trust, and that was never fake. I wish there was some one like that, and I could tell anything. Wisssshful thinking. High school sucks.