life is odd
My best friend from Jr high/ high school's little sister just got engaged. It is so hard to believe that she is even old enough to be getting married. I see all of these people that I know getting married and settling down and I just don't see myself at that place in my life. I know that I could say that it is because I am not in a relationship with anyone, but I really don't want to be in a relationship with anyone. I love my job and I don't need more than that at this point in my life. I also don't feel like I need a man to make my life complete. My mother is worried that I am never going to find anyone and she keeps making suggestions on what I should do to attract a guy. I keep trying to tell her that I don't care, but she doesn't listen. When I was in high school I would have never imagined that I would feel this way now. In high school I thought that I would be married by this point in my life. I really don't think that I ever want to get married. Why do I need some guy in my life that is going to try to control me? I like being in control of my own life. I have already decided that at the age of 30 I am going to the sperm bank and getting artificially inseminated so that I won't have to die alone. Who says that I need some guy just so that I can have a child? I am around men all day, and I know what they are really like. I know how they all cheat on their wife, and flirt with other girls. I don't think that any man can be completely faithful, at least I haven't seen one yet. I live in a man's world now, and what I have learned is that I DON'T need a man in my life.