This was quite relieving, actually.
List ten things you want to say to 10 people.
1. Don't say who the people are.
2. Feel free to comment, but I'm not confirming or answering anything through LJ comments
3. Don't tag 5 people to do the same. Jerk.
1) Even though you died nine years and three days ago (yes, the reason I hate May 19th), you are still the biggest inspiration in my life. Most of the decisions I make are ones that I hope you would be proud of. Sometimes I blame your death for being the reason that I am so afraid of being alone and also the reason that I don't tell people when I'm really truly upset, but I think, as a whole, it has made me a stronger person. I thank you for being the one who started me off in accelerated academics in the first place. You were always a mother to me, sometimes, I'm afraid to say, more so than my own mother. I really wish you were alive today; I'm sure we would still be super close and I'm quite certain my friends would love you.
2) I've known you pretty much my entire life. I feel like I can be myself around you, mainly because you're just as big of a dork as I am lol. Sometimes I feel like we are almost the same person. I love you, I have since I was about three or four years old (though recently this love has developed into a different kind). As exciting as this relationship is to me, I am so afraid of the possibility of us breaking up because I think it would hurt more than most of my previous breakups, simply because you've been so important to me for so long. I wonder if we will be able to maintain a long-distance relationship when I go away to college in the fall. I really hope we can. You're my boy next door (give or take a few houses).
3) I feel so bad about the way I feel about you. We used to be such good friends, but now I am creeped out by almost every thing you say or do. You really need to stop making those jokes; nobody finds them funny. Please stop trying so hard. I really wish you weren't going to prom or the camping trip after, simply because I don't want to have to babysit you. I still love you as a friend, but I think we need to have our space for a while.
4) You are one of the greatest guys I have ever known. I used to have a huge crush on you; I did for almost a year. But you already know this. Thank you for still being my friend even though you didn't have the same feelings for me as I did for you. After we got past that awkward time, we've become fantastic friends. I look forward to going to prom with you. In my opinion, that one girl is crazy not to be totally head over heels for you. And Katie and I meant it, you dang well better come visit us at CMU haha.
5) You're one of my best friends, if not the best. I can always talk to you about anything, no matter how stupid or crazy. You've gotten me through some amazingly tough times; without you, I have no idea where I'd be. Seeing you cry broke my heart, I'm glad you're happy again. :) I'm going to miss you so much in the fall, but I'm not sure you can get rid of me lol.
6) Hey bitch. You're crazy, ridiculous, and I love you. I can't wait to be room-mates; it's gonna be hoppin'. Pudding and smoothie nights all the way. I hate seeing you upset about anything. You're honestly one of my closest friends and I don't know know what I'd do without you.
7) We've been friends since we were eight years old. We dated, that didn't work out so well. I'm pretty sure even if it hadn't ended when it did, I wouldn't have made you happy. You are ridiculously talented and gifted. I know you won't let that go to waste. Without you, my life would be way different, and not in a good way. I heart you, and I always will.
8) You are the craziest 12 year-old I know. You are so fantastic. You will always be my Sweetest on Sweetest day, no matter what. I will definitely come back to see you at marching band and such next year.
9) We've been friends since fourth grade, and best friends since eighth. We've liked eachother off and on, though never at the same time. You told me a huge secret earlier this year, and I feel special that you felt you could trust me with such information. I know we will always be friends, Melvin Doo haha. NO SHAGGY! I mean, it could be dangerous.
10) You're a great friend and I know that every time some guy hurt me, you wanted to kill him. I love hanging out with you and Dave and such. You put yourself down a lot, I really wish you wouldn't. You are one of the most caring people I know, don't ever let anyone tell you differently. I admire you for putting up with what you have in the past. You are strong and beautiful and I know you'll make a great nurse, regardless of what the Navy says. Those bitches haha.
1. Don't say who the people are.
2. Feel free to comment, but I'm not confirming or answering anything through LJ comments
3. Don't tag 5 people to do the same. Jerk.
1) Even though you died nine years and three days ago (yes, the reason I hate May 19th), you are still the biggest inspiration in my life. Most of the decisions I make are ones that I hope you would be proud of. Sometimes I blame your death for being the reason that I am so afraid of being alone and also the reason that I don't tell people when I'm really truly upset, but I think, as a whole, it has made me a stronger person. I thank you for being the one who started me off in accelerated academics in the first place. You were always a mother to me, sometimes, I'm afraid to say, more so than my own mother. I really wish you were alive today; I'm sure we would still be super close and I'm quite certain my friends would love you.
2) I've known you pretty much my entire life. I feel like I can be myself around you, mainly because you're just as big of a dork as I am lol. Sometimes I feel like we are almost the same person. I love you, I have since I was about three or four years old (though recently this love has developed into a different kind). As exciting as this relationship is to me, I am so afraid of the possibility of us breaking up because I think it would hurt more than most of my previous breakups, simply because you've been so important to me for so long. I wonder if we will be able to maintain a long-distance relationship when I go away to college in the fall. I really hope we can. You're my boy next door (give or take a few houses).
3) I feel so bad about the way I feel about you. We used to be such good friends, but now I am creeped out by almost every thing you say or do. You really need to stop making those jokes; nobody finds them funny. Please stop trying so hard. I really wish you weren't going to prom or the camping trip after, simply because I don't want to have to babysit you. I still love you as a friend, but I think we need to have our space for a while.
4) You are one of the greatest guys I have ever known. I used to have a huge crush on you; I did for almost a year. But you already know this. Thank you for still being my friend even though you didn't have the same feelings for me as I did for you. After we got past that awkward time, we've become fantastic friends. I look forward to going to prom with you. In my opinion, that one girl is crazy not to be totally head over heels for you. And Katie and I meant it, you dang well better come visit us at CMU haha.
5) You're one of my best friends, if not the best. I can always talk to you about anything, no matter how stupid or crazy. You've gotten me through some amazingly tough times; without you, I have no idea where I'd be. Seeing you cry broke my heart, I'm glad you're happy again. :) I'm going to miss you so much in the fall, but I'm not sure you can get rid of me lol.
6) Hey bitch. You're crazy, ridiculous, and I love you. I can't wait to be room-mates; it's gonna be hoppin'. Pudding and smoothie nights all the way. I hate seeing you upset about anything. You're honestly one of my closest friends and I don't know know what I'd do without you.
7) We've been friends since we were eight years old. We dated, that didn't work out so well. I'm pretty sure even if it hadn't ended when it did, I wouldn't have made you happy. You are ridiculously talented and gifted. I know you won't let that go to waste. Without you, my life would be way different, and not in a good way. I heart you, and I always will.
8) You are the craziest 12 year-old I know. You are so fantastic. You will always be my Sweetest on Sweetest day, no matter what. I will definitely come back to see you at marching band and such next year.
9) We've been friends since fourth grade, and best friends since eighth. We've liked eachother off and on, though never at the same time. You told me a huge secret earlier this year, and I feel special that you felt you could trust me with such information. I know we will always be friends, Melvin Doo haha. NO SHAGGY! I mean, it could be dangerous.
10) You're a great friend and I know that every time some guy hurt me, you wanted to kill him. I love hanging out with you and Dave and such. You put yourself down a lot, I really wish you wouldn't. You are one of the most caring people I know, don't ever let anyone tell you differently. I admire you for putting up with what you have in the past. You are strong and beautiful and I know you'll make a great nurse, regardless of what the Navy says. Those bitches haha.