this and my period are really screwing me up

[vandal86]

so today chris and i got the news that his roommate died. it's a huge shock because we thought we were going to see him tomorrow and clean the apartment. he was i diabetic and apparently went into diabetic shock while he was in the apartment parking lot in his car with the windows up. i guess this caused him to go into heat shock. after a few days in a comma he died. even though i didn't know him that well the few times we talked he seemed like a super nice guy and all of chris friends seemed to really like him. it's just so weird to know that guy i was talking to last month is no longer here. this whole thing has left me shaken and uneasy. i've never known someone so young who has died. i guess this news along with the freaky dreams i have had about my family dying just leave me feeling disturbed. tomorrow we have to go clean the apartment, in the area where he died and look at his room and know he's gone. i'm definitely creeped out about that.

so none of you guys better die because i love you to much and can't deal with it.